At 6:04am EST this morning, (the time of this scheduled post hehe) I turned 45.
hehehe- what a bad kitty. LOL I always like celebrating the MINUTE that I entered this world. I look back over these last beautiful 44 years- and I am so tickled to have held so many unique roles.
What a charmed existence to be able to say God has blessed me to be a queen of the fireflies, the original dreemer, a chancellor of a university, a little blue tiger, the captain of the pirates, the spunkee-est of the monkees, head wrangler of the welcome wagon, not to mention the most precious roles that I hold amongst family and friends.
Yesterday, we had the launch of phase 2 of our DreemPort project testing, something I'm very proud of! I believe that it has the potential to really be a bridge that's been missing for the cryptoverse. I don't believe that it will be the solution to ALL things, but I believe it brings at least ONE solution and will be a forum where other solutions can be born. That excites me because we aren't trying to be all things to all people. We are just trying to do our part, the best we can. And because of our amazing tEEm, I believe we will.
My 44th year was a remarkable, unusual one! Most of my plans were completely thrown out the window! LOLOL One of biggest disappointments was a trip that 
Andy has been one of my earliest friends in the cryptoverse. I look back over all the shenanigans we got into, the heartbreaks we encountered, the business ideas that we supported for each other, and just the hope and joy we brought into each other's lives. The wild thing is... we met through blogs. We met through reading each other's thoughts and then engaging in each other's comment sections. That's why blogging is so much more than a 10 cent upvote to me. It's an opportunity... an invitation to genuinely connect with someone else in the world IF you both dare to pair. And we so did!
That's why I know that not only am I GOING to see her someday.. but I have a very strong feeling something bigger is going to happen. And I think its gonna be awesome, and I think its going to be better than we even imagined.
So though my 44th year plans went up in smoke. I have 100% faith that better plans are in the works.
And I have this strange certainty that a lot of people are going to be a part of that experience – if they catch the spark, and add their fuel. You're certainly invited. But do me a favor? Be cool. Think before you speak. And be quick to apologize when you've ignored the first two bits of advice lol.
Now... this next part – you're NOT gonna want to read.
Truly. I highly suggest that you type control + F and then put your HIVE NAME in the text box to just skip to the part dedicated to you! Hahahaha If you have been a part of my teem in the past – you can also put in dreemer in the text box, and that will be a special message to you. This is LIMITED to people ON HIVE, so although my family NOT on hive is absolutely part of my gifts of love - but they're not here - so they won't see or read it. hehehe I share my love with them offline! :)
If you are gluttons for punishment? Go ahead and read it all. LOL More power to ya. Hahaha
Thank you all for being a part of my life – big or small, you have influenced me. Even some of you that pissed me off hahahaha You shaped me in the trial – truly. I've taken it all with me, and will continue to grow and bring the best of it all into the next 44 and more.
Love letters of gratitude on my birthday to the dreemy ones.
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How fun that the three of you are actually here with me on Hive! In spite of the struggles, our unity has been unshakeable. That has been a God-given rock for me. REDACTED one. Which is ironic because of the way he... nevermind LOLOL. Whew! I forgot to tell you – you're not allowed to ever leave the house again. ok. Thanks. Stay with me forever. The end.
Our home is my sanctuary. I love you puppies.
Is there anything you won't do for me? If there is, it hasn't been invented yet. Hehe Even though your clock is set on the wrong time, you are there, cheering, nudging, reminding, unpacking (layer by layer!), annoying (with unending laughter), imagining, hoping, packing your bags for wherever my finger lands on the map, helping, poking, did I say annoying? Hehehe My whole family loves you, G Bear. Thanks for knowing how to take a punch. Hahahahaha So grateful for you, my bestie.
I've learned so much about steady determination from you. Watching you develop your talents, slow and steady. You are one of the most dependable people I know. I don't have to say much for you to know what's going on in this mind. I think of how our Three Musketeers have gotten tighter, closer and I think back to 2018.(and actually you wrote a comment on my very first post a year BEFORE that hehe) to when you lured me onto the mic in PYPT. Feels like a lifetime ago, and I wouldn't trade any part of this journey. You're a true gift and a genuine friend!
hehe I'm just laughing already as I start to write this. I will meet you someday, and I'm not sure if I'll hug you first or throttle you. And I can hear your laughter in my head as you say something typical of you and only you in retort. How do you go from hating me (don't lie. You know you did) to thinking I'm the coolest chick you know (don't lie. You know you do) in only three short years? LOLOL I'm pretty sure it was the Pen pen. I told you I was magic. hehe I'm so thankful for you letting me see behind the grouchy, prickly exterior to the most amazing heart ever. You are a machine that can do anything that you set your brilliant mind to. We are witnessing it now. I believe in you – even when you don't. Get your visa, Penjamin :)
You just constantly make me smile. Wow - when I think back to all that we've come from! And the first time we met and you made my dreemie logo!!! hahaha Talking then, a little at a time - and then creating SO MANY amazing things for the monkees! That was SO much fun! And I think about our future and all that we are SO excited to start getting in there and creating and I KNOW that you and Kris and Naty and my little Leah are SUCH a gift to me. I love you all and I'm so thankful for how God has brought us together! Keep our faith!! It will happen!! :)
You know that we can't be separated now, right? Hahaha You know how when the spy wants to get away – and they say “You know too much.” so they are stuck?? yeah. You're stuck with me now. You just know too much LOLOL Plus – you put it in your dream box. I mean – dreem box. Hehe Do you want to make the dreem box a liar? It needs to be fulfilled now. And not just one trip. But many. Recurring. I knew you were special back when monkees connected us hehehe. And ever since then our worlds have been tangled in the most reassuring way. You're never too far. Always shining so I can see your light. And you make all - ALL – my dreems seem completely attainable. Hehehe I love you for that. You believe more than I do! Thank you for being the breath that blew life into me at all the perfect moments. I love you Sheels.
Hardest working guy that somehow finds the time to see beyond all the chaos and focus in on the heart of the matter. I still clearly remember the day I first met you. And I clearly remember your first words to me. You were genuine then, and you remain genuine now. I was stuck, and your name came to mind. I reached out and your response was instantaneous. Not just with words – but with ANSWERS. And not just any answer – THE answer. How? Because you see beyond the chaos and you make the connection. Time and time again. And I love you for it. Thank you from the fullness of my heart.
I remember being so in awe of your generous nature. True generosity is hard to find, but you were/are a treasure. We hadn't spoken for a year – at least. And when I turned up in your DM to ask for help – you didn't just glance over the info – you took TIME. Precious time. To give it your full attention and ask me amazing questions. Get me thinking in new directions. Tested me, prodded me, counseled me. (and I'm STILL pondering how to work some of your suggestions into the system!) You are one of those people who I would carry with me and smile appreciatively when I think of your name. Thank you so much for giving so willingly, E. I so appreciate you.
Seriously? Hehe Are you sure I didn't know you in a different life?? You're either very intuitive, or you're spying on me. EITHER WAY – I LOVE IT. Hahahaha cuz you are EXACTLY what we needed at EXACTLY the right time. With everything on your plate, you would add me and my problems too? Hehehe Guilty chose perfectly. Thank you for intertwining your legacy with ours. We are sure to succeed when we have our very own Fantastic Mr. Fox. Hehe
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I feel like I don't even have to say a word here – and you three will know exactly what I'm thinking LOLOLOLOL Time and distance don't change the connection we have. We've all had the most difficult trials this year – when the year before was just silly and fun and filled with fantasies. This year was much different. We got hit on all sides, beat down significantly, and we still found our way back to one another. I love those kinds of friendships, and I love you.
Our DMs have become so special to me. It's like I just see you. I think back to CO – and you were there. In real life. It was just the final piece of the puzzle. I think of coming down the stairs and jumping on your bed and talking late at night like we were in 8th grade lol. Hugging you and having that special connection. Thinking of getting your LAST maple syrup of the season mailed to me. Seeing your hear in your art. And reading your spirit in your poems. Feeling the hug in your voice, even if I'm just reading it over text. Thinking how everything feels so close and yet so far this year! Like Florida! Wishing for another CO adventure hehe campers this time? Lol I miss you, need you, love you. Come bring the light of your halo to brighten my day -sooner than soon please. Hehe
The day I met Guilty was the same day I met you too. Hehehe I think you were both my first interaction with witnesses – and even though your name was witty – I didn't know you were a witness! LOL I thought it just meant... WITTY. Lol Life has pulled so many of us in different directions, but what I will always be thankful for is your steadfast way of supporting so many people continuously. I don't think people realize how much time and effort it takes to pour into people. But you do it day in and day out. I think of how much fun you have while you do it too! I've seen it personally as you showed up for every chapter of Fireflies, every hunt of the Captain, and still dropping comments and love on my posts! Hehehe and you were the one who introduced me to eturnerx too! Hehe Thank you for supporting so many, so hard, so continuously!
You already know so much more than what I'll say here, but I'll say it again. Hehe How wild that we reconnected just what?? 2 weeks ago?? And the energy that we're bringing! I think its all coming at the perfect time to do the coolest things! And not just our projects! But just the encouragement and focus and cheering one another on! I think there are so many people bringing what they can – but so many are tired, and worn out, and in need of a boost. It's hard to keep going. You just said the same thing in DM to me. But just one day at a time, days filled with grace and patience, not giving up. And changes will ripple and dreems will ignite hehe and good wil spreading! We just need to remember to breathe and pace ourselves and then just do it! Excited for this season and all it will bring!
You are last – because the last shall be first. Hehehehe and you were the first :) I miss you, and thank you for inviting me into this insane world. LOL I can't even begin to imagine what life would be like right now if I hadn't joined you. Hehe Think of you too often. Sending my love to you and the missus. Life is short, thank God for eternity! 😍
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If I had to list you all by name, this post would be even more MASSIVE - so I will NOT try to name you all, but I MUST shine the light on the Dreem Teem that heard the call months ago RIGHT after Uptrennd died. So many were heartbroken and lost, but you all? "What's next, Tiger?" hehehehe You were ready, hungry, and looking to rebuild!! LOL I can see all your faces in my head and your energy!! Badges for UU, and firstborn 
YOU ARE ALL THE BEST GIFTS! HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!
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