That was a good read.
I'd like to add that there is always an interface between ones own reality and that of other humans. Where no interface can be seen, it becomes difficult to be in good contact.

I am more of a pronoiaist, so to speak. Even if conspiracies are going on and even if they have a high impact on peoples minds/lives I tend not to overestimate the ability of controlling everything and everyone. I don't believe in weapons of biological/genetical mass destruction, though I think I know there were and are those of material and solid art.

I will die eventually. I prefer to go from this world with some gratitude.

Yes, little things can give a lot of joy for me. The new flowers in the garden, the insects, the bees, the cat, behaving crazy and giving me a good laugh. The delicious meal. A sewing project fulfilled. Seeing my beloved ones in humor. And so on. I need not much to be happy, scarcity can be something good, seen from that angle. What I fear though, is these days social contact and moving freely again in this world. There, a lot of sadness is placed and also anxiety. I wish to overcome it.

Sincere greetings to you!