I am at the crossroad of choosing between being the girl my parents trained or changing into what society applauds. I am stuck. No, not that I can't get out. I can. It's only that I will be doing the same I have always been doing over the years. What? Shutting everyone out. Yeah, that's me. I can be very boring when I want to be. I am hoping I won't bore you anyways.
Ignore the first part👆👆. I just saw this on my editor and I tried to wrap my head about what I wanted to write about. Did I remember? Yes. Does it still matter? No.
You know I must tell you, anytime when you want to do something, and it's bugging you too much, leave it alone for 30 days. After 30 days, you go back to it. You will discover two things; one, it's still worth it, second, it's wasn't worth it. I learned that today. However, seeing the paragraph above in my editor, I realized whoever gave that rule was right.
If I had written that post that day, I would have looked back today, and puke over it. It wasn't worth my time, energy, and efforts. I'm I even going to tell you what it was about? No. You are going to laugh hard at how stupid and ignorant, I must have been.
So, today, we'll discuss the things, you must have wanted, and when it took a few days to decide, you discovered, it was just you. There was nothing special about that item at all.
I have given you an example in my editor above.
Wait a minute, I remember something.
One day, my friends and I decided to go check houses and ask the price. They left without me, and I met up with them later on. They were about to see the last house and I was there to see it.
We knocked on the gate, and we were allowed in. We told the people we met about the house notice outside their gate. The landlord confirmed he had an available house.
We asked to check it out. The man asked us if all four of us are planning to live there. We said no. He let us in. It was a new house. Just recently built, developed, and painted. I fell in love with it immediately. It was so neat and clean. I was already imagining the things I would do inside of it. The landlord gave us his price and I was pleased. It certainly fits the frugal lifestyle I have in mind. I wanted the house. My friends said no.
Why? They said the area is rough. The other girl kept saying the guys living around rape ladies at impulse, so it won't be safe for me. I asked two other people about the area and they said the area is rough too.
I like that house, I keep exclaiming to each person. Sincerely, I do. I love the house. Besides, they have a gate for protection and security. That's what I kept saying. My friends got annoyed and said I can go on if I wanted it that badly. One of them threatens that she won't come to visit if I do. I just bite my lips.
Why I'm I telling you about an apartment that I want. It's close to 30 days and I still want that house. I have no idea whether I should ignore everyone's pleading and follow my heart.
You see, I am here telling you to keep something up for 30 days, and go for it if you still want it, afterward. Yet, I can't decide. I am stuck. What do you think I should do?
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