Life has been a bit fragmented and confusing lately. I found that living in the city and being far away from nature meant that I quickly lost my sense of grounding and common sensibility. The shift to the Thai New Year (Songkran) in mid-April and new alignments of all the major planets have affected my energetic fields of vibrations. My sense of time and duration has also become kinky and muddle. Then, I realised the importance of being close to nature and the earth as my being would become ‘sick’ or go haywire when my body couldn’t get in touch with nature’s vibes of the countryside.
It has been an ardous task trying to get organised and sorting out belongings for keeping or throwing away. There seemed to be a ‘block’ which got me to hear the word ‘curse’ or some kind of black magic. This was the first time this negative thought came to me. I was usually very logical and non-superstitious. But it dawned on me that I had made some enemies in the past. Their anger and vengeful feelings could popped into the ‘air’ as during the past few months. My mind would probably caught some of these bad vibes which had been subconsciously interfering with the usual flows of my energy field.
So, I had to let go off all these negative vibes and pray for compassionate healing energies for all sentient beings. These energies were very real to me as I used to experiment with curses and ‘black magic’ when I was a kid. A family friend had brought me to her secret shrine and taught me about black magic. I was too young to take these rites seriously but I was curious to find out.
After I realised that these rituals could seriously harm people, I told my mother not to let them take me as an apprentice. I was lucky for making the right decision as a young kid. They picked me among my siblings as they could sense my psychic ability.
I tried to recall if I had inadvertently cursed anyone out of anger in the past. I had to consciously let these old angers go away and forgave those who had wronged me years ago. I knew these people woukd usually had bad things happened to them as a result of their bad karma. But I shouldn’t be adding more weights to the consequences. I had to work with my suppressed anger and let them die away naturally.
The same thing would apply to the hidden hurt and sadness from being badly treated by siblings and old friends. Greed, avarice and worldly desires could easily lead people go astray at the cost of other’ sufferings. The hurt was much worse when it came as a result of cheating by siblings and loved ones. As we got older, I had observed the consequences of bad karma which enabled me to let go easily. But some grudges from past lives could be quite imperceptible and stubborn to be noticed. These required more attention and honest observation to understand and let them go.
I had to neutralise all the curses, intentional and unintentional, which I had made out of anger in the past. This process made me realised that I had to cultivate more compassion and accept that most people were spiritually very weak. The need to survive could lead them to do wrong things. I was very lucky that I didn’t have to face that difficult or tempting situation.
The new planetary alignments indicated many major changes in many people’s lives this year. Many would perish while others would face very rough times. It’s a kind of pay back time for humanity. I dreaded the consequences of my bad karmas since my childhood and past lives. But I couldn’t do much except to prepare myself for all kinds of eventualities. It’s a test of my real character and worthiness for the new chapter in the future. We all had to go through this very rough and difficult phase.
So, accumulating good karma and be spiritually prepared have become my priorities. I hope that Mother Nature and divine guardians in the river would send me healing vibes and positive energies for my survival.
Wishing you peace, good health and prosperity.
Stay strong and cheerful.
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