Breastfeeding was indeed my greatest fear when I first conceived. I was like "how am I gonna open up in front of the nurses in the hospital"; "how am I gonna feed him with people in my room"; "what if my dad enters while I am feeding"; "my dresses are gonna get dirty with that milk oozing out all the time" and what not..
But when I started doing it, it was altogether a different feeling.
One - You definitely feel closer to your baby.
Your baby sticking to you so tightly, it's not only they who are taking the warmth from you but even we feel that coziness which is amazing. The feeling that something you brought to life, you creation, is holding on to you so tight is amazing .
Second - Apparantly, no one sees you with an eye when you feed your child.
To my amaze, people have grown really advanced, they don't stare at you at all while you are doing it. Infact, I could see respect and a feeling of concern while I was doing it. They offer help and support , they understand the discomfort and pain and try to make you comfortable. I could easily feed in front of my dad because he made me som comfortable as if it was nothing. It is actually a natural process and nothing to be ashamed of.
Coming to the challenge part, I exclusively breastfed my baby for the 1st 5.5 months. The more I did it, easier it got. The milk production adjusts to the baby's need. I didn't even use a pump for long time, eventually it got a lot more easier feeding him directly. Easier to an extent that I would just loiter around while feeding him, LOL.
And most importantly, I didn't feed just one but two of them.
I didn't have twins but my sister's baby was born 5 months after mine. So every time I went to her place and she was tired, I used to feed my nephew too. I still do actually, both of them. It's kind of fun now :D
My baby did not get too plump from feeding but I surely grew him well using my milk. Let me share some pictures.
Just out of the operation theatre
16 days old, the milk didn't really start showing its magic
And after that, he started his activities and his cheeks got squeezed
2 months old and the cheeks started to build
And these are his extreme plumpy days
If you breastfeed your child, rather if you are able to breastfeed your child, don't miss the opportunity, it's a blessing.