Sometimes these issues take us to the past, but only to realize that it is something that we can not stop remembering and at any time come those experiences with our loved ones whether they are pets or our people, those people who accompanied us for quite some time
This is the first time I participate for this community. When I read its rules and found one of them I was touched by "behave as if we were in the cemetery". I can remember all the times I have been in a cemetery, remember the crying for our loved ones and even though we know that death is the safest thing we have, seeing us face to face with the suffering for these events makes us feel very sad
I am convinced that when we give everything for our loved ones, that moment is not so painful, in a very personal way, I feel that way. When my grandmother died I felt that I was going to die too, I fell into depression, sadness took over my whole being and I wanted to die too. Those were days of great sadness and anxiety. My grandmother was my mother, she took care of me, she was with me during illnesses, birthdays, all day with me, I was grown up when she left this plane. Now I prepared my children, I don't want them to suffer so much, I tell them that I will be fine, and that we must give way to those who come after me
I try to talk to them in a jocular way saying that I will be with my grandmother, that later they will join me, but all in due time. I don't have many pictures of my grandmother. When I write about her I always put the same picture. Now that I am a grandmother I give my grandchildren all the love I received from my grandmother, an immense, unconditional love, a love that even I do not understand... It was an extreme love
I remember her saying that she did not want so many flowers, that in life we should be aware of our loved ones, I am sure I could have done more for her. I loved the peace she transmitted, she was very prudent, she was always in the kitchen or knitting
The day of her death I had already been with her for many days holding her hand, at the moment I stopped to take a bath and rest for a while at home, at that moment I saw her face and immediately the phone rang; my grandmother had died
Those were days of adaptation, of great sadness, of intense pain. I began to suffer from many symptoms, my bones weakened, I only wanted to be in the cemetery, I cried a lot and I felt very lonely. I was 21 years old at the time. Now I talk to my children about that stage we are all going through and I pray to God that I go first, otherwise it must be very sad. We also had a pet which was very noble and a defender of us, he protected us, his death caused great pain and I have not been able to have another pet...Brando was very special
This is my participation for this community, I hope you like it and we can continue united to pray for those most in need of comfort for these moments where sadness, loneliness and anxiety can end our lives
All images are from my family album. The image of my grandmother is many years old, she did not have many photographs. I used the translator DeepL. I was able to get the images from social networks. Thank you for forming such a nice community. Many memories, many loved ones that are gone, but have a special place in my being. I was able to see many pictures of my ancestors. My signature with Canva application