Change they say is inevitable. I have gradually changed from that shy person I use to be back then and turn into someone I can hardly understand.
This image is mine.
The truth remains that I have actually faced it raw in my life. The hardship, they constant dealing with aulcer because of hunger. I grew up in an environment where lack was a normal thing. You must lack one thing or the other that will push you beyond limits. Sometimes one feel like asking and sometimes maybe not having enough trust for the people around or will I call it my pride that won't allow me just ask.
Because we also live in a society where most people make you feel that you have not tried enough and that is why you are asking for help. As a little girl back then I know of how many times I have slept with hunger just because I can't just ask. If I try to ask, the person will look for a seat, sit down and start to tell you how miserable his or her situation is. You will be made to feel sorry for coming to ask in the first place.
One thing that I hate so much with passion is to ask for help and the person who you know very well, will start telling you stories of how he or she is owning people here and there. How they have not eating in days. So many stories that touches the heart. These and lots more made me find it very difficult to ask for help back then. But no more. I have experienced enough sufferings that made me decide to ask for help when necessary and what will be the worse thing that you think will happen?
After all said and done I started doing the needful. What is the needful dear friends? Ask when is necessary and also be ready to help others when necessary. This is where we need to strike a balance. I might be the one who needs your help today and tomorrow might be your own turn. If I refused to help you today because I am in position, then tomorrow is will be your turn and you will somehow face the same thing. Maybe that is when you will understand how lack humiliate a person. Lack turns you to a stammerer that you are not. Lack make you look stupid in the face of a responsibility. Sometimes it looks as if you don't know what you should do. But this is all because of lack. You can't give what you don't have.
EASY TO ASK FOR HELP
Change has made me who I never imagined that I will ever be. I told myself that I won't die with my problems, so I decided to ask when I need to. The worse can just happen. I know that if the person did not help I won't die. I will simply walk away and turn to the next person. Before going to three people who are dear to me, I will get what I want. This is just the new me. The person that I discovered that is resident inside of me now. In fact I was shocked when I walked up to a lady last month and ask for help. She said she will get back to me when she gets it. That did not change who am I or who she is to me today. I don't mean now that I have become a begger. I am simply not letting ant need to away my peace. So if is something that I can't handle, I will ask for help. Amazingly, help have be coming from the right source every day