I am someone who grew up to believe so much in living independently and sorting things for myself irrespective of how well I have people around me who wants to be there for me, starting from my parent.
Not that I have not been allowing them shoulder their responsibilities on me because my parents are actually the sweetest and caring parents I could ever ask for but when it comes to asking for extra things that pops up urgently for me to sort especially when I was in secondary school, I find it so hard to open my mouth and ask for it.
I would rather save up my food allowances till it sums up to the amount I need because I would not want to bother them. The only one I am free to always ask from tirelessly is God.
There was a time a close friend tagged my attitude to be pride. He said I was only proud and that's why I find it hard to ask for what I need but I'm sure he only said that to get to me though cos that isn't easy close to the truth.
So with this attitude I have, success and financial stability becomes more demanding for me right from my tender age and everyday after turning an adult, I look forward to having more stream of income to be able to live the kind of life I want for myself and not to depend on anyone for my livelihood.
I'm sure almost everyone is passing through their phases of life, most especially in this present economy state of the country, so adding my burden on them looks callous to me.
However, no matter how hard I try, it seems like life isn't really working the way I planned and it just have to move in the pace it really wanted to. I'm not someone who compares my success or life with someone else to intimidate myself but when I see people younger in age and they already had way beyond what I have been dreaming to have, I rekindles my determination to try harder.
Not that I pressure myself or become too hard on myself to make it in life or when things are not going as planned or even blurry at times like I am not moving any closer, especially when adulthood resets our brain to see all the responsibilities that shines their full eyeballs to us, but I get motivated by others success that as long as they can achieve it then I'm no exception. As long as there's a focus, my goals are achievable.
I don't want too much, I just want to have more sources of income that would enable me foot my bills, sort family responsibilities, socialize and not be left out in gatherings of my peers cos of finances. I know that's not much to ask for or aim for and that's why I'm not relenting in the journey of achieving this. Not because I'm pressuring myself or comparing my life with others but because it is what I desire for myself and Its a fulfillment making myself happy that I banged that height....
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