I Still Miss Him.. ❤

I don't know about the exact date when Shaz entered my life. I just find him with me since the time my memory can reach to. I was a toddler or perhaps an infant when he came to our home and since then he had been with us.

He was my best friend. I shared my happiness and sorrows with him. I discussed with him everything. He was a good listener. Whenever I was sad, I went to him to tell him the story. He would listen to me and then we had a hug. A calming and soothing hug…..! He was simply magical.

As a kid, I slept with him many times. We shared a pillow. I just put my hand on him and he would be closer. He wouldn't make a noise so that I might sleep soundly.

I remember when I went on with my father for a ride on the bike, I took Shaz with me. I always let him sit ahead of me. I talked to him on the way. It was a great pleasure.

I remember when I came back home after a month (I went to visit my grandma in another city), my eyes looked for him. I found him sitting in a corner of the home. I had a look on his hand, his right hand fingers were badly hurt. A mouse had bitten on then. Oh my Shaz…..! He was in pain. How could a mouse do this to my sweetest friend. I was so angry (on the mouse) and sad (for Shaz)... I cried for his pain bandaged his hand. I was only 6 years old at that time and I didn't know that his nails won't recover ever.

Shaz was my best companion as a kid. I didn't use to play too much with my cousin. I had a small world of my own in which I was the princesses and Shaz was the prince.

Time passes so quickly. It did for me. I reached at the verge of teenage. I no longer slept with Shaz because I was growing up and it would be odd to sleep with him. People would taunt and criticize. However, during that time too, I stole some kisses in solitude; those were the last kisses. Afterwards, I had understood I was no more a kid and I have to very cautious about my actions. We were physically a part. We had lesser interaction, yet he was still in my heart. His worth never faded. No one ever took his place in my life.

Life went on, I reached my adulthood. Shaz was still in our home, but quiet. I think he didn't want to disturb me. There came a time when I had to leave my home, because I was going to marry.

I still remember it was 15th February, 2013 when I saw him the last time. (It was the day of my wedding.) He was sitting with my cousin. She was looking so happy with him. I smiled looking at them. I didn't know it would be the last time I would see him. When I visited my mom's home after my wedding, I found out that the same cousin had taken him with her to her hometown, miles away from me ………

Since then, I haven't seen my Shaz, a Male Doll, My first love……❤

I still miss him