Holidays are one of the activities I look forward to every year. This is a time I love to travel, relax and unwind. Before now, I love to travel, do fun activities, visit friends and family and mostly enjoy my own company but since after my wedding and relocation to another state, and also becoming a mum, I hardly see my family members. So, I make use of the holiday period to visit my family members.
I am a person that Loves my own company a lot. I enjoy hanging around friends and family too but not as much as I love to be alone, daydreaming, fantasizing, sleeping and being creative. I love to be by myself and this affords me the opportunity to think,plan and restrategize. But my alone time now is a luxury that I am not able to get anymore and this is affecting me greatly.
I am a mom of two lovely kids but the only time I get to be away from them is when they are in school and I'm at work. When that time elapse, we are together and I don't have family members around that I can leave them with. We are always together during holidays and I love them a lot but I am actually craving a holiday without having to scold anyone or shout or separate fights, cook or clean and the likes.
I don't know if this is being selfish or I'm just overwhelmed and stressed but I need a holiday free from all these normal routine. I need something different. I miss the old me who had my time and life in control. It now feels as if I'm not in control of anything anymore. This makes me so sick and sad. I just pray I don't get more depressed over this.
The next holiday I'm planning to go on, is an holiday without any family members. I'm so stressed with issues that I can't help this days and my mind won't stop thinking about things. I just feel like going far away to a beautiful place of nature to clear my head and maybe I can find a solution to every challenges causing me to stress.
I may need not less than a month just to rediscover myself. I want to rest by sleeping and waking up at my own time or even spending the whole day in a dark room all by myself. I'm wornout with both my work stress and family drama and I think I'm losing my mind. Maybe I'm just overthinking but I need some time to myself to be sure I'm still sane.
Maybe I should call it a retreat or something because I will also need some time with my creator for some things are not really clear to me and I need some answers to pending questions and way forward.
How I'm going to go about this is not clear yet but this is the agenda.
This is my response to Hive Learners community weekly featured content week 162 episode 3 on the topic: This Holiday
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Yours Truly 
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