Some actions are unconscious that after and before committing them you are blank. I Quit it's wasn't a job or profession rather it was a phase which become troubleshooting for me. Being extrovert became headache for me why because I faced lost of emotions. The honest feelings I have had with pure intentions were rejected. Being attached and affiliated brought multiple circumstances to me which were harsh for my pure heart. Saying straight words I was misused because of sensitive heart.
The help I did as philanthropy was called help for benefit.
I never argued with them on any issue but they all pointed my affluent background as FALSE.
In the honest way I was severely hurt from my benevolence with friends. That university pal who said friends for life left me after few years. So in the last academic year I quit all these friends and relatives who wanted to push me back. What they desire for me was my failure but I have to remain alive for myself. I wasn't weak to let them win so
I moved to loneliness.
It's hard to listen statements about the silence but it's better to absorb them rather than obtaining pain as being extrovert. A happy life ended when embraced loneliness. In the clouds of observation I noticed the inner piece. The explorer hugged me with warmth. Things shuffled because of emotional damage.
What did I quit?
I quit going to gatherings or any others functions where judgemental people criticised me. I quit the friends with benefits.
I quit the lifestyle where my classic attitude and personality was judged. I quit the people who were temporary with wrong intentions.
I quit the relatives for whom my wealth matters more than my sympathetic attitude.
I quit the pals who had two faces. In short I quit everyone who might render pain to me in future.
Did it affected me?
Yeah I had to listen much about this attitude, some called I had breakup that's why I changed myself. Some said she got nervous breakdown or any lethal disease that's why she is hiding herself. Few suspected me as a criminal who was guilty after burying the carcass. Well sometimes I laughed and other times I cried. Why? Because I was seriously hurt. I didn't deserve to be called with such names.
The regime change inside me ;
What I adopted next was valuable. I connected myself to the Lord who never ever judged me for anything. He didn't share my errors with anyone else. He never pointed me out in public because of misconception. I was in only guilt that why didn't I made Him friend rather than losing my money and sentiments on snakes who wore human dress. The writer Ayesha took rebirth and initiated spreading happiness through words. I explored the words of people who were guanine by heart no matter how far away they were from me. So yes I quit real life entertainment where no was loyal in anything. Ending the post with optimistic thoughts that if you are having the same suffering move on firmly for yourself.
