The truth is that a gun do not need to beput to my head to be grateful about a whole lot of things especially the littlest things of life. We wake up each day and go about about normal
Life. We are healthy and everything is fine and we somehow feel we have the little right to be grumpy because things don’t turn out the way we wanted or because everything isn’t rosy and we don’t have a billion dollars in our bank account.
We miss out on all the little and yet great things that we should be grateful about. The little experiences I have had so far in these two weeks of the little health challenge that I had had made me learn to be grateful about a lot. This evening I took a little pause and thanks God for a whole lot of things.
I have been living well and can breathe and walk about that’s a lot to be grateful for. So I had been diagnosed with ulcer after some health episodes that I had that made me go to the hospital to check out my health. I have had people talk about having ulcer and I don’t give a second thought to it and never have I ever would have believed that I would have to deal with it.
Pretty funny how so a little thing could change the life pattern of someone. Some weeks ago I saw a girl writhing in pains and when I asked what was the issue, they said it was ulcer pain. Now I understand a little bit of that but I don’t want to talk about how my eating pattern has been altered and even with that I am still grateful that I could eat through my mouth.
Like really grateful. I have been grumpy about how it had made me been eating round the clock but it’s a thing to be grateful that I have food to eat and that I can eat it well through my mouth and feel no pains. I don’t even want to go about how painful it is to eat with mouth ulcer in any part of your mouth. Just grateful I don’t have one either.
So basically we all eat and go to toilet without giving it a second thought. What We know is that as long as we eat, we must shit it out. Do I need to give you an epistle about how blessed a thing it is to be grateful that you can shit or poo, however you want to put it but that’s what I am grateful about this season. Invariably I’ve come to learn what a blessing it is.
So I have been taking these bunch of drugs and when I say bunch, they were really a lot. They have really reduced right now but the amazing thing with this particular ulcer drug that I got onto after the first is that it has myriads of side effects. Now I have never seen any drug has a leaflet with so much side effects written on it.
This one was a lot and one of its side effect is that it causes constipation. Yea, story of my life. Now lemme paint a little picture for ya. Imagine that you feel pressed to poo and the press is like a 24 hour press on your anus as if you will have a little running stomach and your feel it tugging at your stomach and at the anal hole. It’s a constant throbbing that’s there.
Now you make your way into the toilet with all that press and then you think that once you sit in the toilet, the whole thing will come tumbling out but it doesn’t. You would use all your muscle to push out but nothing comes out and then after several minutes of trying, you give up and come out and yet you are still feeling pressed to poo.
One of those frustrating moments after a long trial and nothing came out, I had to voice to my rummie that we do not understand the blessedness of having to poo with ease. So I can be feeling pressed the whole day and yet not be able to use the toilet until the next day. So when it eventually ones out, I as so filled with relief that I started appreciating the ability to just go to toilet without struggling.
I am grateful for my life, my health, my family, my friends. I am grateful to be alive. I just had a breakup and failed relationship and today I was thanking God for it. Like man, that was a literal deliverance from a fire that I would have walked into with my eyes open all in the name of love. I cried over it for weeks but now I see it’s all foolishness to have cried. That was an epic save.
I am not where I want to be but I am overly grateful for where I am. I am grateful that there’s no gun to my head before I could be able to count my blessings. I count them everyday and today and it has always suprised me what the lord has done.