This topic was the story of my life. It's took a lot of determination, I decided to face anything that would come out from it before I could break free a little now. We always talk about friends that doesn't want us to grow, friends that always discourage us moving forward,we all do say we cut them off and go out separate ways but what if it is our family, our loved ones holding us back from? The fact that it comes from their way fo love, they wants to protect us, they don't want us to go through hardship, they want to keep us safe but they didn't realize they are putting us in a cage and it's not the best for us.
It's a very battle to fight, your decision of going against them will result to them believing you do not appreciate their love, it will make them feel you didn't love and care for them like they do, you will be the rebellious child to them whereas you also love them but they couldn't understand the path you want to take. Sometimes the people who makes it hard for us to grow is our loved ones, the affection tied us down to their decision and back us to our dreams.
I was in such positions for long years,pursuing my dreams and making decisions for myself was hard,my family call me all sort of names, whenever I see them feeling like all their efforts of their love was in vain, my heart break into pieces, I becomes weak and let go of my decisions to make them happy. I was thinking a day will come they would realize I had to make this decisions but that day never came , Everytime I mentioned it ,they interrupt me. It was then it drawn to me that they can never realize until I push myself without considering their emotions.
I wanted to go into catering but they said it's a very stressful job and the point they hate their , according to their beliefs is that "it's a servant job" I will be treated like a servant, cooking for People. I try to change this mindset of them but to no avail. I struggled hard got some money ,go to YouTube to start learning, I would schedule the day they won't be around to practice the recipe I learnt, when they comes back I present it to them, the first time, they couldn't say it tasted good just because they are angry that I still do this thing behind their back but when I attempted it the second and third time that even neighbors I gave for tasting all started praising what I did that it tasted so nice , that was how they now started complementing me too.
Now, I realize, letting go sometimes doesn't mean hate, it's never an easy job to go against your loved ones but trust me, one day when they see what you becomes, they finally understand your reasons for going against them, it's to find yourself and build your future.
