There’s this saying that says, “Everyone Knows Exactly What They Are Doing.” But from my end, I tend to give people the benefit of the doubt, which sometimes leads to a scar. But it still doesn’t deny the fact that I understand the fact that we are all brought up differently and also understand the fact that we are two different people trying to work things out together as either friends, partners, or any form of relationship it might be. So I always try to see from your perspective too and never judge you by my past experiences with others.
Before taking some certain steps or actions of ghosting a person, I tend to give you lots and lots of benefits of doubt about what I have in my head till I am able to get a cogent reason for all your actions and also till you are able to prove me right with what I already have in my head to ghost you. But sometimes, the problem I tend to have with people is how they tend to take you for granted or take you for a fool when you try to give them the benefit of the doubt. Which is insane if you ask me.
Because tell me why I am trying to see the good in you and you are taking me for granted for doing that. Mind you, I already have all the answers to every action you take in my head before even giving you the benefit of the doubt. I only needed you to prove me right. After getting it all figured out, then I will take the action of fading out of your life, quietly. And that’s one more reason why I tend to take my time to study the situation very well before taking actions from my end in most cases.
Because I hate to regret my actions after taking them. So I always endeavor to try my possible best to tread carefully and be patient with cross-checking my reasons for wanting to cut off a relationship with someone and watch you realize your mistakes all by yourself without saying a word. There’s nothing as satisfying as letting people understand and see for themselves their mistakes without saying a single word. It creates a sense of accomplishment in me as a person.
Although, this step is never an easy one to take as a person whose blood runs in their veins. We all have feelings. It’s hard to just let go of a person who you became attached to. But sometimes, it’s just best for them to realize things themselves. But in this current world, instead of people accepting their faults, they act nonchalant about their actions. And believe me when I say it’s so alarming that we are beginning to adapt to these feelings so much as not to get hurt by what people do to us.
We hardly get to talk about our misunderstandings and settle them once and for all these days, and it’s so unhealthy in my opinion. In situations like this, I don’t tend to regret my actions in most cases again; talk more of reversing the past when I know you eventually realized your mistake and still played the nonchalant game with me. I’ll just make peace with my inner self and move on with life. And that’s when I’m certain that I did you no wrong. Rather than it costing me more harm by disturbing my peace, I'd rather just leave quietly.
Life’s too short for regrets. It doesn’t mean I hate you as a person, but it still doesn’t change the fact that you fucked up as a person. And trust me when I say, I’d definitely celebrate you when you still win in life. But you don’t just get the chance to be that close to me like you used to be again. Thank you for reading, and this is my response to the #hiveleaners weekly prompt.