Well if we talk about the whole year, time has really winged by, and we're all set to step into the journey of another 365 days again in a every short period of time probably few weeks form now to 2026 and when we look back to 2025 it's will seem like dream.
I wouldn't say it's has been so great or bad, sometimes the scenario becomes overwhelming and sometimes it's turns to our favour,then I feel everything happens for a certain reason and at the appointed time of God, yes I strongly believe what ever that is meant to be will and definitely be!
In all of this I will always be thankful to almighty God for his unfailing love, guidance, grace, mercies, protection infact for everything in my life, I return all the glory to God and the praise to the Angle God sent to my life as my beloved mom, who has always be there for me in every circumstances that I face, words can't really express how much I love you buh I just want to express my gratitude to you and I will forever be grateful 🙏.
yeah no doubt this year has been filled with joy, goals, laughter, rejections, memories, most of all heartbroken 💔 Et Cetera, and by thy Lord mercy here am I still trying to write something about how it has been so far, like I once said in everything that has happened i return all the glory to the giver's of life.
I thought this year would make a difference for me in aspect of always lost in thought and crying buh No, everything almost seem the same, except not worst, I easily get emotional and within a second tears roll down my chick like a little baby, it's wasn't because I was too weak or flakey I guess this is the only way I can express my feelings, it's really hurts sometimes that I wouldn't help or stop it, buh those tears was never a waste, it's awaken the strength in me and stands as a reminder that they's still more to life and with just a determinant and my focus I can push harder and would do more better. Like the saying goes nothing good come easy and this year made me realize and adapt to that.
One of the climaxes of this particular year for me was when I lost my sister to the cool hands of the death, at first I thought my eyes and ear re playing dece on me, everything seem like a night mare to me, i truly wish someone would just wake up from sleeping but No, it was all a reality non was a night mare or a lie, or better still a plank, everything in me change I hated everything around and outside me, because everything seem to be against me then I ask the universe, why me !? Why must it has to be my sister!? Why us!? Why must it has to be her a lady who just graduated preparing for NYSC service on November, the death has no mercy after all the sleepless night just to come out with good grade after all these struggles death came.
This really breaks me down, I most gave up on everything because what's really life after working your ass off without enjoying the fruit or the outcome of it , I wanted to stop pushing and trying buh then I was reminded once again that the life I live wasn't mine buh God own, I came to realization that everyone's time/purpose on earth are quit different, what if my own time didn't come on time that means I have to remain helpless and weak till I depart.!? No! for that I summoned a courage to put everything behind me, work harder and prayer for long life. And here I am healing, struggling and hoping for better days ahead, because giving up is never the best option.
Thanks for reading through💚.
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