Whenever I am feeling sad or down and I do not wish to share with anyone so that I will not pass my aggression on to them, the best thing I always do is to distance myself from people, taking a step back doesn't necessarily mean that I am cutting them off entirely but just for a couple of days, it is normal to feel alone so that I could think and sort myself out and recharge rather than being aggressive on people who are closer to me
Every day will not be a bed of roses, I do find myself in sad situations most times and I need to ponder over it, it is okay to shed tears if it warrants it but you must be back to normal.
I had this terrible experience when I was dating a guy some years back, I invested my time and money in this relationship but my friends kept telling me that the guy didn't deserve all I was doing for him but due to the love I had for him then every word was just like a bird flying away, I never put any of the words into the heart but I continue with him.
I saw many signs that the guy wasn't good but love had captured my soul which doesn't allow me to see the bad sides unless the good part, at some point we were planning to get married and owned some properties, so we decided to get a land and started planning our future together, I was working and earning greatly then, we decided to contribute some money because we had an opportunity to purchase land close to the town and we can later develop it.
I dropped my part of the contribution and he did the same thing, I was asking him to get the land before we lost such an opportunity because the land was on promo then, far forward to what happened, the guy left me and traveled out of the country with my money, I never knew he was processing his Visa, in one word the guy traveled without informing me.
He sent his sister to me and that was how I got to know about the journey, he was still talking to me the night before he left, he didn't give me a chance to suspect him at all, we talked like we used to do not know he was planning something else.
I cried my eyes out when I got to know them, I disassociated myself from my friends and family because my friends warned me about him, telling them what I was going through then would lead to making a mockery of me, I distanced myself from them totally because I needed time to heal, I cried practically every day because I was so disappointed and need time for myself.
After some days my friends tried reaching me but my phone was off, they came to my house to check on me but I didn't open the door, I pretended as if I wasn't in the house, I did not want to go through another pain of mockery so I decided to lift my spirit and move on with my life.
I gave myself time to heal and started calling my friends back, I explained what happened to them but to my surprise, they had already heard from one of our friends who was also a friend of his sister, I moved on and ignored the situation, though it wasn't easy I made up my mind never to behave as if I was pained, I saw his sister and she started begging but I told her I have moved on with my life and such is life.
One thing that helped in this situation was music and movies, I dedicated more than to music, I watched movies whenever I'm in a sad moment, movies have always been my site of sadness, though it takes time to forget and move past it I never allow the situation to break me into pieces.
My family and friends are just like my backbone whenever I am down, I can distance myself from them for a while but it will never be long, I will still come back to tell them my problem and we can all laugh about it after settling with my inner spirit. Happiness is what I signed for not sadness, I see the situation as how God wants it and he will never deny me my happiness.
This is my entry for this week's episode of hivelearners community prompt of #hl-w120e1 which the topic is "BATTLE FOR HAPPINESS"
