How amazing it really is to see that the year is moving so fast and how the first quarter of this year 2025 has slipped through my fingers so fast just like the way all my hard earned money slipped through my fingers yesterday. I could remember vividly how I imagined at the beginning of this year to be full of hope, a lot of promises, sufficient available balance, filled with growth, scribbled goals, and a bit of calm and softness on how I be treat myself. From January till this very moment of writing this post, some of the promises have helped up and under the unimaginable weight of unexpected life moments, some have crumbled quietly.
The beginning of this year came in like a calm push, filled with a lot of hopes and motivations. Well planned out, well organised, looks so good to be true. I was working out to get more fit than before( well, it was only for a couple of weeks before I stopped), and very much optimistic. However, February brought a curveball (was emotional down and exhausted, stressoout with some panics on what next step to take in life and was obligated to reshuffle my priorities. Some of my desires, goals, plans had to take a pause and be on standby.
In the month of March, I was trying to gain my ground and a lot of things became more clearer to me. I started doing things my way, I ceased in the pursuit of chasing perfection because no one can be perfect, we can only try. Instead, I started giving more rooms and acknowledging my little wins, choosing rest over burnout, replying to text messages from friends.
Fast forward to this month, it all started with a bright smile on my face that things are about to change for the best until I came across a friend who introduced an investment trading platform for me where if input a certain amount of money, the AI will be trading the money for me and after 35 days I will be able to get my investments and profits, but unfortunately for me, I invested all my hard earned money into this investment platform two weeks ago with the hope of withdrawing my money after it has yielded. Unfortunately for me, 5 days ago, the platform which is known as CBEX ST paused withdrawal giving all the Investors that they will open the withdrawal today which is the 15th of April. Sadily, on the 14th of April which was yesterday the CBEX ST investment platform emptied all the accounts of we the investor without leaving a dim. All my heart earned money is gone. I thought by this time next month things would have gotten more better for me when I withdraw ,but at this moment I don't even know how to survive this.
I have learned the hard way. I have to be strong and there are some lessons in life that comes in a hard way like this because big loss like this are counted as part of life experience.
I have to keep my head up and my chin high because when there is life, there is also hope. Though the lose really hit me hard when I least expected.
So, if you ask me if 2025 has been everything I hoped for at the beginning of this year, I will say, No. But, maybe that is okay even when it is not okay at the moment. For me, this is a reminder that the life we leave in is linear and things won't go as we expect, but there will be waves, healing and growth and I believe for me, there is still so much year to blossom.
Here is to rearranging the sails, be confident in the next step, accepting the mess that has happened and be hopeful in the future.
How has your first quarter been?