The world is somehow not so balanced; the more you get, the more you see the need to get another. We are always on the lookout for getting something that will be beneficial to us and at times to those that are close to us. These and more are the things that build up anxiety for us. There are times that I feel tha I am losing it all, and I just need someone to talk to so as to help me ease out some level of stress.
It works out for me, and at other times people I feel I could speak with also have things that they are passing through, so I just end up bottling up mine while trying to offer some reasonable advice to them.Some weeks back I was in such a shoe that it was days before I gave birth to my baby. I needed a healthcare person to speak with, as I wasn't ready to visit the hospital. I was so down with fever, and I was confused about whether to take a malaria tablet or not. When I called a friend of mine, as we exchanged pleasantries, she ended up opening up to me about what she had been going through for over five years.
I ended up listening to her and wasn't able to talk to her about my issue.Childbirth is one journey that comes with a missed feeling; the last process was one that was full of bags of anxiety. It wasn't just said, but it was so visible in most of my activities. It's been weeks of joy and added responsibility for everyone in the family. What makes it less stressful is the fact that the older kids are on holiday and there are no school runs, but we will start up by the first week of next month. This means that we have to wake up early every day to make sure they get to school on time and also bring them back from school.
Seriously, this has been a serious point for meditation for me personally because I have to prepare lunch, wash their clothes, and more, coupled with the fact that I have not fully recovered from the stress of pregnancy and more.As humans, we always, one way or the other, look for a way to give comfort to ourselves, even if it's not total comfort, but at least it will be better than nothing. For my kids returning to school, I have plans to wake earlier than the way I have been waking for the past weeks. After giving birth, I just decided to sleep longer than I used to; instead of waking by 6am, I wake around 7 or even 8am because most nights the baby is active, and that means I have to be awake too so as to feed him.
From the coming week, I have discussed with my husband rescheduling my waking-up time. Instead of waking up by 7 or even 8 am, I will push it back to an hour before, which will help me prepare the kids' lunch and take them to school when my husband won't be available to help out. Though it won't be so easy, we hope to be fine with time.When the kids go to school, I will quickly fix the house and the dirty clothes and also prepare what they will eat when they return from school.
This is a sacrifice that is worth paying for the future of the kids. It is very important to us, as they are still too young to care for themselves.My entry to the Hive Learners Contest Week 163. Thank you for reading.