The way I think of 2024 in my head, it feels like a really long time ago but surprisingly it was just the previous year! Since I gained admission into the university, it’s as if the time has been running super fast and sometimes I wonder how I manage to keep up with this fast pace. I have been expecting so much from myself lately and it feel like time is not on my side. Life has been really good and bad for me. I have had my ups and downs in these past months of this year. This year started on a really good note and it helped me see things from that perspective that all will be well no matter what happens. I have achieved quite a lot of things now that I think about it but too bad I didn’t really count these things as much then but I believe they are now.
According to the hivelearners topic for this second edition, we are asked to share our thoughts on THE EMBER MONTHS. A lot of times, this ember months are usually part of the fastest months but generally, this year has been really fast for me. It only felt like yesterday I got admission into school and soon I’ll be in my finals. I have achieved a lot despite the ups and downs I have had, both in my personal life and academic life. I have had really tough struggles that almost broke me but by the grace of God it only made me. You don’t even want to know how many times I have thought of giving up.
I have evolved in the past months. I have learnt and unlearned so many things. I have had the opportunity to see the best and worst of me in this year. I had a lot of person development to do and that has been the hardest part so far. There was a point it felt like everything I did was wrong. When I even thought things were going smoothly it just ends up crashing down again. It has been a hard year but I have so many things if not everything to be thankful for. This year has built me in ways that I never imagined.
I still have a lot to achieve. In fact, this year is even only just getting interesting. I have been playing a lot with my seriousness academically and I really need to do better. Most times, I wait for people to tell me what to do but not anymore. I have this semester and my final session to redeem myself and get the grade I have always aspired for. Some days I find myself settling for less and thinking that it would be impossible for me to achieve my goal of graduating as one of the best students in my department. I say a lot of negative things to myself but not anymore. I’m changing the rules and I’m ready, by the grace of God to see that I work diligently for what I want.
It’s not going to be easy. I plan to keep daring myself to do things differently if truly I want a different result. I have long accepted to be average. I know I can be more and I will be more and the remaining part of this year is a lot of time to re-strategize and stay focused to my goal. I have this feeling I’ll have to make some sacrifices to achieve my goal and I’m going to do that as long as it’s the right thing to do. My academic life is one that so many people have made sacrifices for me to get to where I am today and I owe it to myself and also to them, to dare to be part of the best because why not?
The year is still young and I believe there is so much I can accomplish in the next three months. I have started and I pray God helps me to keep going even when it gets hard.
Thank you for reading through. ❤️