Sometimes, life has a way of hitting you down when you least expect it, but in the end, it is important to realize that it is okay to not be okay and that was my case this week on the dreemport challenge.
In my opinion, I ended last week pretty well, but during the weekend, I fell into the worse case of depression that I have experienced in a long time and everything felt like they were falling apart.
I spent days crying, staying in my feelings, and even arguing pointlessly with my partner but, I didn’t want to give up on the challenge so I pushed on.
For my personal goal, all I wanted to do was give myself time to breathe, rest and try to be in a better frame of mind which wasn’t the easiest, especially since I had intrusive thoughts.
Without further ado, I’ll be breaking down my week two on the dreemport challenge, as much as I want to break it daily, I feel like I didn’t do enough this week, and writing about it that way would only be boring.
DREEMPORT CHALLENGE WEEK TWO (MONDAY-FRIDAY)
5 minutes prayer ✔
32oz of water ✔
20-minute physical exercise ✖
15 minutes towards person goal ✔
Other✔
Submit post of dreemport ✔
The week started out very hard, all I wanted was to be left in my bed but I woke up daily, said my prayers, and each day I practically begged God to help me.
Because of the weather, I had no choice but to drink water so I was successful in that aspect, but I wasn’t in the mood to exercise and I knew forcing myself would do more harm than good, so I didn’t throughout the week which I hated but I'll do better next week.
For my personal goal, I tried to get as much rest as I could, practically slept during those 15 minutes every day which I knew was needed because I haven’t been sleeping well for weeks, and I woke up feeling refreshed.
I also intentionally took deep breathes during the day when I had intrusive thoughts, and I tried not to overthink which helped me a whole lot more than I thought it would.
Another thing I wanted to do this week was read more which I did mainly on Wattpad, I have felt like I have been neglecting reading, so it was good to be able to do that.
Also, for the first time in a long while, I successfully submitted a post to dreemport every day which was my highlight to be honest, because I have been trying to keep up.
It’s Friday and I feel a lot better than I started the week, I have realized that I am a bit too hard on myself like my partner says and I overthink too much which isn’t good.
As much as I want to beat myself up for not completing any day this week, I know that I can’t be okay every time but it’s important enough to keep trying.
NOW TO ANSWER THE QUESTION FOR WEEK TWO
I feel like the most challenging part of beginning this journey is knowing that I have to be accountable and consistent, especially with the physical exercise part, I have a love-hate relationship with exercising so it always puts me in a bad mental state when I push myself too hard which I can’t help but do.
I don’t know if week two has been better for me because I had a lot of mental health issues asides hive or this challenge, but I know that I haven’t been overthinking as much about the challenge like I did last week, if anything, it has helped me to have a regimen which I needed.
FINALLY,
I am hopeful that next week would be better than this week was, and my goal is to continuously keep pushing till week six which I know is achievable.
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