This is a publication based on the suggested topic proposed in the Hive Learners community through their discord, which on this occasion is "ANXIETY".
"Survival is not about being fearless. It’s about making fear your companion, not your captor."
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Hello dear visitors and readers of my blog.
Today's topic to deal with is anxiety, and this is a topic that we can say, in a way, is commonplace nowadays in the world so agitated that we live in.
After going through so many things as we have gone through in the world and as we are going through, it is normal that people feel anxiety for one thing or another, even more taking into account the world and the generations that we currently have, which are extremely sensitive, named and labeled as "generations of crystal" because they are so fragile that they are sensitive to any change, no matter how minimal it is.
But leaving aside the mental fragility of these new generations, I must say that the issue of anxiety is quite delicate.
Personally, I suffer from panic and anxiety attacks that 95% of the time have to do with my financial situation.
Living in a country with an economy as difficult and complicated as that of Venezuela, it is quite hard to surpass or cross through these financial stages.
Our ability to acquire goods and food is very limited, and there is a great polarization in this because there are people here in the country who are doing very well, but it is a very limited sector.
However, there is another large part of the population, in which I find myself, who are doing very badly at the economic level.
Having to suffer this anxiety makes us generally start to overthink things about how we are going to be able to get out of the situation or what is going to happen tomorrow.
This leads me to the first question for today's topic:
What really causes me the most anxiety at this time and damages my mental health?
As I have already said, it is the financial issue, but to be more exact, at the moment I am writing this publication, it is not knowing if I am going to be able to have the necessary amount of Hive rewards to pay my internet monthly.
I have said it on several occasions, but for those who are reading this publication for the first time, know that my income until recently was mainly there. I continue to do it, and I dedicate myself to another activity that helps me finance the expenses.
But this is something very recent, starting a month ago. I do not plan to comment on this other activity here, but I want you to know that it worries me.
We are already practically four days from the end of the month—no, two days from the end of the month—and I do not have, at this moment today, even half of what I need to collect to pay for the monthly internet, which is an amount of $30.
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So far, I have managed to accumulate approximately $12 in Hive rewards. That is, I still lack $18 that I do not know if in two days I will be able to gather.
The problem with this is that the company that lends me internet services only gives me a deadline of the first five days of the month to pay the bill.
If I do not pay the bill in the first five days of the month, they cut the service, which would mean I am left without internet to continue earning my livelihood.
This is something very vital for me.
I cannot work with mobile data because it is too expensive. I would spend the monthly data I have in just two or three days making publications and doing everything I normally do here and there, as well as taking care of the other work I have in addition.
I would consume the data very quickly and would have to pay too much extra.
Thinking or overthinking this mortifies me and causes me high levels of stress.
This leads me to the other question:
How do I plan to surpass or solve this problem?
I try, as much as possible (as I have read in other publications), not to overthink, but above all to distract myself.
This is a problem I have had for a long time, which has led me to chronic acute depression for many years—over 40 years—and I do not manage to overcome this depression because it does not provoke me to do anything.
What it provokes me to do is dedicate myself to sleeping all day.
So I think that by dedicating myself to relax, watch movies, and do the things I like (which I try to do periodically every two days) to distract my mind and not overthink, it helps me avoid these anxiety attacks.
But it is inevitable when I have to think about this, and when life, for example, proposes to me—without knowing it—topics that talk about anxiety.
Then I am re-stimulated by this anxiety when I have to talk precisely about anxiety because all this concern comes to light again.
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The process of overthinking things is something quite complicated because external factors, which are not in my control, re-stimulate my thinking or overthinking about anxiety and this problem.
So, I hope to be able to raise the $18 I need to continue having internet and not run out of this vital service.
I think the way I'm going to have to get over this is to ask a friend of mine for a loan of about $5 or $10 for a week to complete the amount I lack.
Precisely, I think what I will lack to complete the payment is about $5 to $7 to reach the $30 and remove this anxiety I have at the moment.
I hope all those who read this publication manage to overcome their anxiety problem, which is quite difficult and complicated.
I try to be stoic about this, but this is a topic that is very hard to overcome because when you have to work creating content every day and your life depends on it, you cannot take time to relax or distract yourself.
Every day you create content represents income to pay precisely for the internet and bring money to your table.
On one hand, you continue to fill with anxiety, and on the other, you need to contribute to your mental health.
Here, the human being enters a dilemma: survival or mental health.
I think you have to achieve a balance between both, and therein lies the difficulty.
Carrying out this task requires great mental strength, which I have, but which is even difficult on many occasions to stay centered and focused to remove that anxiety.
I hope that you who read this manage to overcome it and do not have that anxiety or many panic attacks.
Well, this has been the topic for the community today.
Thank you for reading me.
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