I think a simple sentence to describe my "Angry and mad" moments is, "I'm slow to anger, easy to please back but lessons learned" and I say this from the countless experiences I've had with people since I began to understood "being angry or mad about something". I remember many years ago, when I was living with my cousins, they'd get me angry but I didn't know I was angry.
I say that I didn't know because I laughed at everything and because of that, they did whatever they wanted to or with me knowing I won't retaliate or act rash towards them. But that changed one day, only that day and it never happened again... I got super angry at one of my cousin, we were almost same my age but I was older, I fought with him first then burst into tears.
There's this guilt that came over me after fighting with him, especially with the fact that he won the fight, and it felt so senseless and useless that I really went in for a fight with him trying to show that I was angry. Since that day, I've never gotten angry to the point of wanting to fight but I replaced it with saying too much when I'm angry. "Too much", especially words that I don't mean.
That has changed a whole lot now, I mean, for a long while till now because I understood once again that saying too much was no different from fighting. Because of these realizations, I settled for being easy to please when I get angry. For a fact, I'm almost never angry because I can laugh off things and when I do get angry, I can be very easy to please and that means, I don't stay angry.
I can minimize the long talks or chats, the laughs and the spending time with someone who got me angry but it doesn't mean, I'm still angry at the person. It just means, I've understood to an extent just what the person see me as and the actions they are mostly likely to repeat again if I don't try to limit the time I spend with them. Although my family is exclusive to this my style.
I know I should treat everyone the same way I would want to be treated and I think I'm okay being treated like that because I know just how it feels to be angered. Although, I'm never going to relate to how people get so angry easily, stay angry for weeks to months and never forgiving. It's a big sign of "not Christ like", I would flee from it because it is contagious and not a good one.
One thing I know very well about myself is, I don't get angry easily and I'm building myself to always be easy to please in the few times I get angry because the Bible kicks against letting the sun go down on my anger. I know there would be more challenges to get angry at in the future, so it's important I master the art of calming down when I'm angry by simply minding the words I say and choosing to forgive even when I am wronged.
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