The end of 2024 made me realize that I need to up my game and do better. Though I was really happy with my little achievement last year, but when I thought of the things that I could not achieve, I could not help it but sigh in disappointment at my inability to achieve, at least, 70% of my goals last year.
This year came, goals were set, motivation became my morning tea as I took a daily dose of motivation as if I'm a known hypertensive patient that was placed on antihypertensive medications. My belief was that - there is no one to come save me, so, I gotta work for my self and accomplish everything I truly need.
Now, the first quarter of the year has gone by. The big talks I said during the beginning of the year are gradually coming back to hunt me. Frustration is gradually kicking in because I feel like I have not done anything. Welp, so I thought. But looking at it, I'm gradually begining to achieve the long term goals I set for my self this year, just that I'm myopic to see my achievements. But I love it like that though.
So far so good, 2025 has been a very nice year. Though, just like everyone else, I have actually seen obstacles and hardships, but then, I'm glad I saw these hardships because I believe that they are moulding me into a better person so as to properly face the next challenge I face.
When this year started, I set quite s handful of short term goals, though these goals were not as much as that which I set last year. Last year's goal was actually scary, but then, I achieved most of it.
Just like every other year, I started this year with quite a lot of expectations. I evaluated my all round performance last year, and I was actually happy. So, I set a goal to do better than what I did last year. Hopefully, I want to do times 2 or 3 if possible.
I'm glad that the year is going the way it is, though I can't say the same thing for the stress and workload of everything. One major thing that is making me feel very exhausted is the fact that I'm working in one city, and furthering my academics in another city. Gosh, that's Sooooo exhausting as hell. Honestly, I don't know how I'm managing both activities at once, but then, I'm doing it. I guess when the body meets something that stresses it, it will have no option but to adapt to the situation.
Academically, I'm pushing. I just joined last month, and my school is insisting that we write an exams. The exams we're expected to write is something that have been taught 4 months before we joined. It's actually frustrating. Most especially for me that works and school at the same time. I have to do extra. I have to read when I'm at work, take more glucose and ultimately, get little sleep. Sometimes I can't help it but take a pause and ask myself, so this is how it feels like to train yourself in school..?
Just today, I came to work and the Director of Nursing Services of my hospital told me that she heard from somebody that I don't use to come to work. It got me pissed because most times, I abandon school activities just to make sure that I'm at work. I had to play cool and defend myself. I think I know who said that to her, but I'll just keep quite and continue my work.
The major thing that is keeping me going is the fact that all my plans are actually going well. There has been no deviation from my initial plan, so, I'm cool. The only problem I have is the workload of working and schooling. It's actually affecting my activity in hive, but then, to me, it's better to reduce my activity here, then achieve my goals than to keep being active and lose my goals.
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