It is very important to be upset sometimes, then you can actually understand the speed of the mind and know what the people around you are doing and who is thinking, what will take you.
I'm really upset today. My state of mind is very bloody. But I don't tell anyone that. I want someone to understand that. And the most difficult thing is, the one who is upset, no one wants to understand it. In fact, you have to suffer your bad feelings alone, maybe this is the rule.
I look at the people around me and wonder what they think about me. Honestly, I am not in their thoughts. They don't really have time to think about me. They are in their own world, spending time in their own minds. There is no time to think about people like me, that is normal.
Although simple words are difficult to digest, they are eternal truths. And outside of that, the people doing the show, they never really liked me. They are constantly doing these things just to annoy me. Which sometimes hurts me a lot.
I understand everything and know everything, but I can't open my heart to anyone and I don't want to. Because the surrounding situation, in such a situation, I have no desire to cause much more trouble. So I stay quiet and enjoy my loneliness. However, I think this time will pass and better times will come.