September 28th, 2023.
I had gone to bed the previous night not in the best of moods, surprisingly, getting upset somehow made me go to bed early, compared to other nights where I'm up even at 3am in the morning.
Before I went to bed, I had uploaded a status on my WhatsApp, one to remind people that it is my birthday today. I usually don't do that and actually had no plans to do that this birthday, but I had a last minute change of heart because I remembered how under the radar my birthday has been this last few years and knowing how messed up my mental health is especially during this time of the year, I decided I needed all the love I can get. Besides, everyone is busy with their lives and you don't expect them to remember your birthday.
Screenshot from my phone.
Anyways, I had woken up to a couple of text messages on my WhatsApp, the only people who tried sending me an SMS was my bank and considering how unfaithful of a customer I've been to them this year, I was a little bit surprised they still had my birthday date in their system.
Sadly, no one called to actually wish me a happy birthday. All I got was just WhatsApp messages and that was it. It felt sad because deep down I know that is a reflection of my life, not having anyone special enough that would want to hear my voice even at this special moment.
Actually now that I think of it, one person did call and it was . Bruno had been kind enough to call twice today, the first time was to wish me a happy birthday and the second time was to get me a gift. Other than Bruno, no one else called, not even the family.
One of my brothers had seen my status and sent me a WhatsApp text, while I had stylishly reminded the other one that today was my birthday. But like I've always said, my family isn't big on birthdays, at least that is what we all tell ourselves.
Today in general was uneventful. I had plans to attend lectures but changed my mind at the last minute because it started raining and I felt it was a sign for me to just sit back and relax.
Anyways, a happy happy birthday to me and I hope someday in the future, I come back to read this and maybe just think about the year 2023 when my birthday sucked.