A lot is going on around you, and all that comes to mind is that you're cursed, you're the cause of the problem, and nothing good can come out of you. You felt like giving up, like putting an end to everything. Maybe that'll ease your pain. Maybe that'll make things work out well for those around you. Maybe, and more maybes kept pouring into your mind. Well, before you take that dreadful step, please take out time to read this.
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Yes, it might be age, mate. I know you're older than I am, and you felt what this young man could have to say or know about life to try and motivate or talk me out of what I'm about to do. You're right about that; I'm pretty young and haven't experienced as much as you might have, but I know one thing for sure, and that is the fact that you're the one calling the shots. It isn't over until you say it's. Yes, I know you've prophetic positivity in the past and nothing changes, but still try reading this.
I've been in your shoes. Yes, I know it might not be in the same way, but I can't tell you for sure. I've been through hell and back. I've gone through difficult times as well. That brought me to the very point you were. I felt like drying. I actually prayed it would come, but I found none. It even got to a point where I yelled at God when someone around me died. I was always frustrated because I thought I ought to be the one in that person's shoe.
Nothing was working out for me. I once tried to double cross a moving vehicle so I could get crushed, but nothing happened. I couldn't contain how well I'd worked out my life and then watch it all crumble before my eyes. Yes, I was one of the causes of my own problems, but many other things happened thereafter that I knew nothing about. The day I thought I'd die was the day life springs forth into me once again.
I had closed my eyes as I walked into the middle of the road, waiting patiently to get it. Instead, I got a pat on my back. It was from the person who would have crushed me to death. I expected her to be furious, mad, and yelling at me for almost putting her into trouble. I ran, but she followed me. I ended up being vulnerable and pouring it all out. Never have I spoken about what I'm going through to anyone, and after pouring it out, I felt a bit light, as though a load was lifted off my shoulder.
After listening patiently to me and comforting me, she showed me some scars and asked if I'd love to listen to a story about her and how she got the scars. I agreed, and by the time she was done, I felt like I should be the one consoling or counseling her, but she laughed it off and said that what matters now is the present and what she wants her future to be like.
And some of the things that helped the outcome of those trying times were her words and actions towards me.
One is how she lets me come to the reality that I'm not alone in such a situation. By telling me her story, I get to be at ease a little, knowing fully well that if she went through what she said and is still here, living fine, then there is hope for me too.
One other thing she made me realize was that I needed up, and rather than drying alone, I shouldn't judge others but at least seek help. In the aspect of speaking up to someone I can trust to comfort me and someone who can help get me out of my mess, she helped me realize the problem isn't the end of the road, but that it has so clouded my mind that it has made me not see other paths, and when I seek help, those who aren't in such a problem with me can easily guide my path towards seeing those paths.
There is the common saying that a problem shared is a problem half solved; this is still relevant to this day, and I can assure you that despite how terrible you think everyone is and that no one will help you, deep down within you, you've got a name ringing that you know can. Step outside your shell today and approach the person; the world is filled with many good people, and I'm certain you'll meet your angels among humans.
Another focal point of my discussion with her was when she asked about my work and skills. After I told her, she seemed to brighten up and was sharing some ideas of how I can turn around the face of my skills to turn my story around. She helped me see beyond what I initially saw, and she also offered to connect me with some of her friends who are doing pretty well in that same path. I'm certain that when you seek help from the right set of people as well, they'll help brood out the light in you.
That's about all on my message to you today. I'm always here if you need someone to talk to, but on a final note, truly everything sucks and nothing is working out, but I can tell you this for sure: you're all you need to bring a change to this situation. When you say it's over and you've had enough of it, that's when it'll stop. Please do all of the above and also know that you can make the rest of your life the very best of your life with this very decision.
NB: I make use of Quillbot grammar checker features to help correct some of my grammatical and punctuation errors after writing my content by myself.
Thanks so much for your time, have a joyful life ahead.