When insects start to gather around lightbulbs it's a clear sign that the rainy season is coming. Tonight signals a change of season, lightning and thunder and rain start to come in. Insects are usually attracted to light and are referred to as phototaxis. The theory is that insects use the light coming from the moon and stars as their navigation tools for migration. Artificial lights like streetlights and lightbulbs at home distract and disorient them leading to their demise.

This post is not about the insects, this post is about us. The behavior of these wasps can also be seen as a metaphor for human behavior. We are often times drawn to a fire that kills us -- Things that are not good for us. Whether it is addiction, a toxic relationship, or overdoing yourself committing too much to too many things. We sometimes take on responsibilities that we know are detrimental to our well-being, we know it is dangerous but we fail to resist the light.

The reason for this is that we crave productivity, we crave for striving success. Most of the time we are consumed by the thought that our worth depends on our accomplishments, leading us to grab the responsibilities that we can see as a way to prove ourselves worth.

Personally, with work expectations, work demands, and mostly family obligations I tend to bite more than I can chew because I want to provide more to the table. Knowingly, it will destroy me from the inside because it is not going to be sustainable.

Just like these wasps, I tend to be disoriented and blinded to notice the bigger picture. I focus more on what is in front of me and lose sight of what I needed to do -- the danger ahead. I realized these things too late especially when I am on the edge of burning out, getting exhausted, and failing to continue.

To break the cycle, We must learn to prioritize taking care of ourselves and setting healthy boundaries. This will lead to saying no to some of the responsibilities that are being offered to you. Identifying a reachable goal and planning it carefully helps a lot too. It is only when we learn how to take care of ourselves that we can truly be of service to other people.

To live a fulfilling life. That is what I want to achieve, to be satisfied and to be loved. With tonight's reflection, I will be doing more to correct my previous mistakes. Journaling will be my way to stay on track and be focused. The distractions are widespread, discipline should kick in during these moments. To surrender everything and get into the flow.

The insects' behavior to be drawn to light is a clear metaphor for what my life is going through right now. This change of season reminds me of the lessons that I need to relearn and grow from. With this, I will break the cycle of burnout and will strive to live a life fulfilled.

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