And she lives.
She always dies.
Every day, when the world turns dark, she dies. And it's cold - she's freezing - and there's nothing she can do because she's dead. She swears sometimes someone passes her by, then stops across her, as if contemplating touching her, but won't. Then she'll scream... at least try her best to scream... to get anyone's attention, but her voice fails her. There is no voice.
She's dead.
What else is there to call when you have a voice but can't scream. You have all senses but you can't feel. And you have a heart but it doesn't beat.
Then the world rises around her. The sun shines, and the day glows. And for some reason, she lives again.
The drawing
The idea for this work is very, very random. In fact, I initially have other plans for this one, but I ended up with a complete illustration. The motivation comes from a nightmare I'd had when I was 15 years old, which felt almost too real.
In the dream, I was dead. It was after waking up that I realized I love the idea of living. I think I have gotten this point across in one of my artworks last year, Eve, a name which essentially means "to live."
I didn't want to repeat a drawing, as I have long re-drawn Eve, so I instead ended up with this. A greenhouse, filled to the brim with just greens, and then a person that stands solely where the flowers bloom, engaging on her vice (er, I personally don't smoke, but I think cigarettes are like a universal symbolism to vices).
It felt like it took me a long time to complete over the course of two days. I thought the background was too ambitious for myself, especially since I really sucked at backgrounds. I think it ended up pretty all right, though. What do you think?
This is the first time I tried this kind of drawing style. I still do it the way I usually do (as can be derived from my older posts), but there's something I wanted to try. I can't explain, but if you've been following my artworks in the past, I'm pretty sure you can pinpoint the difference.
Minted artwork
This piece is minted on 
Other more personal notes
So. I'm back. Or maybe not. I'm not really sure how often I'll get to post again. I ended up MIA because of... DUN DUN DUN...
wOrK.
Long story short, I decided to focus on my job IRL if I wanted to move forward on my team's work plan. My supervisor herself went MIA on me, and I had to be a big girl and do my tasks independently.
The times I tried drawing again, I couldn't. I don't know why! I think I'm not made for multi-tasking. Once I've set my mind on something, I had to see it through. I believe it's just pure luck I got to finish an artwork today. ;)
How are you? I hope you're doing all right. :) I forgot to mention that this work is also motivated by the plants that suddenly adorn my bedroom (thanks to my mother). They're the kind of plants that are very low maintenance, so if they die on my watch, I'll definitely make a bad gardener.
