Let's agree to disagree on the doxing thing; you think what you did was not and I firmly believe that is was. Enough said.
In respect of the other stuff...These friends on the platform you speak of that you care about...Ok fine, but you'll not make a difference to them by repelling people like me. I'm just saying.
Also, my suggestion is to get out into London, or wherever in the UK you are, (I think UK anyway) and find a military veteran living on the street in squalor because the government failed him after his return from the sandbox. Give him your thanks and respect, buy him a meal (I suggest fish and chips with mushy peas and a coffee) and sit with him whilst he eats it and give him some dignity. I'd say, without the shadow of a doubt, that it will make an amazing difference to him and you'll get more thanks, and feeling or reward, from that act than you will get from all of these so-called friends on Hive or any other social media nutbaggery.
RE: Contemplation