Welcome to Hive. Not gonna lie your story brought a smile on my face. Especially the "NOT ready" part. But this is the life. If you are not going out of your circle, you wouldn't know what is going on out there and find motivation to work harder. I am glad this logic worked for you and you are where you are now.
I invite you to explore other communities you might like that are part of the OCD Communities Incubation Program. Check out all the communities, read their rules and post in the one that fits your content.
RE: Boredom to Brilliance and finally Charity : My Chess Journey