Going through life can be overwhelming sometimes. Some days it feels like everything is going on smoothly and boom! Things just starts changing into what we can’t even explain. As a young lady, life has thought me so much that I sometimes wish I had learned or accepted earlier. I was once at that point when I was feeling I was still too young and I still had time but I was wrong. Life kept throwing me to different directions and the truth is, at some point I got lost and I thought it was going to be impossible to find myself but I did and now I’m here.
Some years back, I won’t say this is where I want to be. I’ll probably have this beautiful and almost perfect idea of how my NOW should be if I was asked some years back. Back then, I was hardly ever turned down if I made a request and that’s because I hardly ever make requests because I was scared of being denied my wish. And because of that, all my life, I have been consistent with a lot of things because I believe that it is not right to give up, especially because it got hard.
I learnt to work hard, even on days when I wish I could just rest. I feared not doing enough and that made me always give my best to anything I find myself doing. To some, I might seem like someone who is a perfectionist and I won’t blame them at all because I feel since I have the ability, I can always try to do things the best way they can be done. Regretting is foolish. I have been there a couple of times so I know. Most times we are just scared of the unknown and because of that, we didn’t give ourselves the chance to try some things. We already concluded in our minds that we can’t get it.
We even at some point laugh at others that are always trying, saying they are too optimistic and spiritual. But that’s just what it feels like when we keep trying no matter how much we fail. And you know, that’s one of the hardest things to do. Trying again even after multiple attempts. That’s the hard way and mostly the only way. The moment we neglect that way, we start thinking it is okay to not try and when we don’t try, that’s when we start regretting our actions.
When we try, we are sure of the reasons why we can’t do certain things. But when we don’t try, we find it hard to even tell others why we can’t do some things we have decided not to do. And once this happens, it will come to a point when all you will be doing is regretting. And once we start feeling regretful, we start having so much self doubt and confidence. We become failures in our eyes even before others do and that is not something any one will want. Hence, I’ll rather die trying than living the rest of my life regretting my choices.
Trying things doesn’t really limits us, instead it opens more possibilities for us. It creates room for us to have more options to choose from. So being scared of trying is more like us locking ourselves up by our own selves. By trying, we believe more in ourselves and even encourage others in the process. Life will only make more sense to us when we are open to trying no matter how hard it gets. It becomes a struggle when we limit ourselves from trying. As someone once said, ”Never say never”. We will never know how beautiful an idea would become if we never try it.
Thank you for reading through. 💜