Gotta make some more NFT's out of these!! Oh yea I have a something on mintable. https://mintable.app/u/synthesisunderground If someone bought some stuff from me that would be a dream come true!!
So yea I have some sad news. My favourite cousin died recently. She was detoxing at my Aunts house. She also has epilepsy. She had complications due to a seizure. That really sucks, tho I noticed a bunch of signs before and after. Like little warnings that the world is still in danger mode right now. Yet I intend to stay up!!
I went on that trip to the city recently. It was before my cousin passed. I tried to get ahold of her 'cause she was apparently at a rehab in the same city. Didn't get a response, not sure if she had her phone. In the city there is a friend I haven't seen for a few years. Wanted them to go biking with us by the river. The friends phone was broke but got it fixed by the last day we were there. When they got ahold of me I thought it was too late in the day to visit them now. They only had a tight schedule to see me.
I travelled with my best friend in life on this trip and we live together. She wanted to go for a walk at a certain park close to where we ate at a restaurant. I was with my mom too. We went to this restaurant and it was close to this park. It ended up we were at the right part of town at the right part of day to see that friend I haven't seen in a long time! So I was able to see them after all. It was almost like a mystical experience. This friend has had tough times too, been hard year. Yet she is doing better, growing up some.
Tonight I saw someone else I haven't seen in about 10 years. It's someone who had a bad trip back then, she flipped out some and played chicken with a train. So then her dad got guardian status over her. When she came up to say hi in my yard today I didn't recognize her at first. Then I kinda remembered and said what are you doing in town right now, it's been so long. She says she's been here the whole time. Her dad is the mayor of our town. I remember him being real over protective 10 years ago too. Wow she must be about 30 years old now and it's like her dad kept her away this whole time. Kinda freaky right. I told her she is welcome here at anytime! We are lonely. Her dad came to our place almost threatening saying that she is supposed to be home right now. I said the right things and was calm. My cousin who died her mom was overprotective too! My mom was kinda like that but with so called schizophrenia so she was freaked out but not over disciplinary or anything.
So it made me think of all this stuff! Even saw a short video on youtube about shamanism today. Hard to explain but all this stuff coming together. That's why I had to write this blog to try to capture the thought. I always felt this connection to so called schizophrenia from my mom and new an elderly guy my grandma used to take care of who had grand mal seizures. In some of his episodes during the full moon he would think he was different people like Jesus himself!! The way my cousin communicated to me was sort of otherworldly too but I sense I understood it. I don't think I would get her so well if my mom didn't have her condition and I didn't know that old man with the seizures.
I sense that sort of aura from the young lady who came up to talk today as well. I feel that sort of connection of understanding without words. It felt like my cousin's spirit reached me tonight through her to let me know it's alright and it's still not a very friendly place out there either. This lady would make a good friend for me! I don't really know many people in this town. Sometimes you feel a connection remembering someone from the past by seeing them and it brings back memories.
So that's it. My blog tonight. Trying to make some sense or at least feel it out. Coming to that point where things could go bad or get really good. We are in another tough time. I will try to do as much as I can in the next while. I will try to get back into the music as it feels like a best bet for the self expression, getting out ideas while making something that can last and improve my life. Good signs lately. It's like some of these people and different things that come around are like angels for fairy folk. I will stick with that fighter sprite vibe!
This music is a therapy. I'm excited to put some more out there. I like the soundtrack element. Use for tiktoks. Oh yea I think I may make a small series there out of what I'm talking about in this post
https://bit.ly/synthesisundergroundyoutube
https://bit.ly/synthesisundergroundmainspotify
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/synthesis-underground/1512916600
https://play.google.com/store/music/artist?id=A7edudv44mjibskcyw26medg744
https://www.deezer.com/en/artist/94411682
https://www.kkbox.com/jp/ja/album/IsS5Ubm6XwX.u0F6HAlN009H-index.html
https://soundcloud.com/massesect