I often exaggerate what actually happened to make myself look interesting and my conversation seem extraordinary. That foolishness led me to bad consequences in order to remain relevant to what I was saying, to look attractive in the eyes of others, to the point of being willing to lie and speak untruthfully. I realised that manipulating others for my own personal gain was something bad and foolish. I try not to act like that, but sometimes it's difficult to control. I consider myself cunning and deceitful, so it's easy for me to see when others are cunning or manipulating me. Maybe it's all just a process of maturing, but on the other hand, I'm also a very open person and I'm not ashamed to talk about the bad things in my life. I hope for every word and expectation that others convey to me. for me, it's all about interests. If something has been fulfilled, I certainly won't expect anything else, so basically, it's all about interests for me. Sometimes I just want to be listened to, and that does sound very selfish, self-centred and lacking in empathy, a master liar, a big mouth, talking too much and wanting to look cool. Arrogance makes me feel like I'm the greatest, know everything, and act smart. After all that, I often think that what I said was wrong and I regret it. I am learning to restrain myself from acting that way, a process.
Speaking of this collage, it depicts a stage that suggests a performance and drama. On it, a great spider is about to prey on a snake with a crowned head, its web surrounding the entire stage, clearly visible to the audience. In this collage, I wanted to portray theatre, cunning, apathy, deceit, and arrogance.
Okay, I created this collage entirely using Paint.net, taking images from internet and using a free font called Chomsky.
Here are the steps I took, which I turned into a GIF :
