I wrote this while walking through speech to text, so expect it to be a bit messy.
A while ago I felt how wealthy I am when I was training working out every day and even when I had like major financial what do I call it crisis like financial tough times something like that so I felt that wealth that I kept thinking and talking about but then when I stopped working out I like forgot how felt to like just finished exercise and feel powerful feel like full of hope for some reason feel courageous brave consistent disciplines and all of these other positive emotions so and the last time I went to the gym was about it was a while ago a long while and right now I just what like the very latest one was a couple of days ago but I mean like in general I haven't been exercising for a long while so now that I have just finished my workouts I feel that well again so I'm walking back home and I feel wealthy I feel wealthier than most people who are like either walking or driving around me and so on and again I also keep thinking about the phrase that I wrote yesterday which is every single person can do what I do but most of them if not all of them wouldn't so and yeah I know that's something like learning a mastering in German must be virtually impossible her wouldn't use the word impossible but like it's really hard it's something challenging it's not easy at all it's probably harder than most of the things that you've done in your life however what kind of pain would you choose so there's this kind of Fame where people work for like minimum wages they work for very long hours every single day they almost don't take any days off because if they did they wouldn't have enough money to spends in their day off and like their jobs are even very laborious very demanding so on like that two people I'm seeing right now in front of me and you have to choose you have to choose either the pain of not changing or the pain of changing because both are painful I'm literally walking in the street and I can see the pain in everyone's eyes almost no one is satisfied or please are happy with where they are in life most people are in just satisfied with their current position with how much money they're making how much money they have with their composition in general so but what's are they doing to change this I don't think they're doing anything so yeah choose the pain of changing or the pain of staying the same and but you just can't come back and complain about what you chose so you can choose comfort and then come back after a couple of years and and wine and complained about how things are you chose not to change how things are and you have the option every single one had the option every single person had the option to buy an absurd silly the most basic hook that has you with maybe let's say German let's say programming and let's say any other thing what I mean is and that's not some kind of motivational speech it's whatever wants to do something they do it however doesn't he finds an excuse and that I find that to be so f****** real and it's it's even applies to me like I wanted to learn many things that I wanted to learn many skills and on its owner many languages for a while now and find it what I'm doing right now withwith German and if I have done what I'm doing right now six months ago or something I would have been somewhere different right now I would have I would have had worked in a job that is also demanding that is also the voice but at least I'd be making let's say about 10x what most people are making here sometimes even more and also I would have a very promising career very promising future and this would be an entry level job so you can just imagine how much will I be paid if I got promoted for example or if like I strengthened an iron forced my language and I took more courses and I maybe came more specialized and so on so yeah some people just chose to stay the way they are and I was among those people were very long I chose to stay the same and I didn't exert the effort required I didn't pay the price of change so then I had to deal with me being the same I didn't choose the pain of changing so by default I chose the pain of staying the same which is awful I'd say like when when days and and weeks and months and years past by and you are the same person nothing have changed or even worse things have changed to the worst so yeah you get to feel bad about yourself especially that you have the ability to so once again one of the saddest phrases in the English language is I could have okay it's not I wish it's not I hope it's not it's not many things that also Express regret but it's I could have okay it's the thing you could have done and he chose to not any chose not to okay so everyone of us has something that he wanted to do a long time ago and if that if have done or is that he had done in the past he would have been somewhere else right now so for some people it's a skill Brothers it's language for others it's maybe like any other thing like maybe soft skills something like mutations go through or whatnot so everyone had something they wanted to learn and they know that this thing could change who they are so maybe it's the right time to do so maybe it's time to stop thinking of wasted time or some wasting time thinking about ways to time because that's what most people do we waste a lot of time thinking about wasted time which is just a waste of time nothing else so yeah I wanted to learn German let's say let's leave six years ago or up to even eight years ago and I haven't made the decision to start learning all over and it's never late to do the right thing it's just never late to do the right thing okay and I could sit here and say yeah if I did this eight years ago I would have been there and I would have done so and so but this isn't beneficial it doesn't help me in any way of form what's really beneficial is to stop looking behind to stop looking backward and start looking forward so thinking about what you've wasted and just care about not wasting more try to use your time as much as possible and what you see is most is most beneficial is most suitable is what what is most worthwhile or most worthy of your time yeah that's about it