I'm writing this now because I don't know what else I should do, and I'm done sharing my problems with friends, so I'm gonna get back to how I used to share since 2018.
Is that a good reason to write? I'm used to being motivational and optimistic always, but probably not this time.
I feel like everything is going against me this time, I have no breathing space, everything demands that I stay strong but I can't, this time I truly can't.
I don't want to share much details but at the same time I want to give some context, I'm in debt, I have been there for so long now, I'm in unbelievable financial distress, and I've been working so hard just to hardly ever make ends meet, but by the time I do so I'm already exhausted.
The problem is; I've been always that bright guy who everyone had exceptional expectations for; smart, knowledgeable, ambitious, and every other great quality you might think of. But, I guess they were wrong at the end.
Believe me, I feel ashamed to be here whining that's not who I am, but it seems to me like no matter how far I'm willing to travel to end that agony, it just doesn't.
At the end, I still have to continue trying my best not to achieve my dreams, but because I don't have any other options, I must continue fighting.....