My mom always believed that “happiness is a choice”and that was a bit complicated for me.Joy versus sadness: the temporary feelings you have that are caused by circumstances, are not a choice. There is no possible way to be joyful every single moment of your life.
But that being said,constantly thinking:"I have such a terrible life."I should always be sad,"is your choice. Being happy doesn’t fully rely on willpower. It also relies on making effort in your own life to change things. Happiness is about control. If you realize you are in control of you, however untrue that seems, it becomes better. You are not just controlled by circumstance.Maybe it seems nearly impossible to take control in your life, but you could. You just choose not to do so, instead choosing different places to put your energy.
So,he we go meet my imaginary friends:
I will have an army of imaginary friends,The first will be called Mr.Meow. He will be a manifestation of my conscience and live in my psyche as a Cat. He can sometimes talk in a black voice and swear as well. But,he will cause me to second guess EVERYTHING. And because of him, I will be able to catch liars and stuff.
I will also have a few others who
will be Ahnjing, Tappi, and Man-hee,and they will all look entirely different from another, have different personalities,come from different parts of the world,and have different values,but they will all care about me.
They will all be extensions of me.They know how I am feeling,they know everything about me,they won't make me feel pressured or awkward, and i will
truly be comfortable with them because, like I said, they are me.
I will spend hours in their company, especially in the night or even days after somebody hurts me,or when I’m stressed.
Bottling up emotions will only cause me to explode later or suffer in silent torment. I need to express my emotions some how. Venting to people is a really usual coping technique. Being able to just talk and be heard by someone does a great deal to help ourselves work through what I am feeling.
The unfortunante part is that not everyone has someone they feel comfortable doing this with. It takes a lot of trust to be vulnerable to someone. Sometimes the only person we have is ourselves and in that moment imaginary friends can be the most wonderful thing in the entire world.