How could I forget those fierce eyes of the hostile, perfectionist college professor? Never look at your wrist watch in front of him while the class discussion is on-going because he felt insulted and he will surely insult you too in front of the class. Do not submit a less quality output, if you will then he will surely crumpled it in front of the class and throw it in the garbage bin. I was unluckily lucky to have him as my college professor.
It was in my first year second semester that I had met this professor. He was my professor in philosophy subject. Actually, I was lucky and grateful to have him as my teacher because he taught us well, he guided us well, however I don't like how he humiliated his low performing students or I may call those students who has less interest to the subject. I don't want to get humiliated in front of the class so it was the start of my unlucky me.
I was assigned to deliver a report on the topic "What is Soul?". I had given 1 month to prepare. So since I don't want to get humiliated I want to satiate him. I want to present and deliver my report well. So I never wasted time, I went to the library and read books, went to the internet cafe and googled the related topic however, my understanding about the topic was limited so I had difficulty of articulating my ideas. My goal is to present it according to his standard or maybe beyond but due to the limited knowledge that I had, it gave me so much stress, pressure and hard days and nights. Because of my shyness I never seek help to the right people , I just made it thru myself alone.
One day due to exposure of too much stress I experienced toothache. Never did I thought that a simple toothache would definitely change my health. I took some pain reliever pills without enough food in my stomach and without considering the time interval before taking another pill. Since I wanted to free myself from extreme pain, I consumed many pain relievers, as far as I remember I took 7 pain relievers in less than 20 hours. One hour after I took the last pain reliever, I felt numbness in my left body. My whole body was cold and I was pale and breathing was hard for me. My father immediately decided to bring me in the hospital as he heard me complained about the stinging sensation of my tongue. Later I realized what I felt in my tongue was the result of the hot water that my older sister gave me and I immediately consumed it without letting the temperature slightly subside. But to my surprise I never felt the hotness of the water as it landed in my mouth.
In The Hospital
In the emergency room, I felt that I could not anymore survive. I almost called my father to let him know that I wanted my funeral held in my mother's hometown because my whole system was already weak and ready to give up but a little voice in my head screaming that I have to fight and never give up. I'm not sure where that little voice came from. Yes, I struggled and almost lost my life but because of that little voice it saved my life.
After I was discharged, I make my report and surprisingly I finish it less than an hour. My personal experience of the close encountered with Mr. Grim Reaper helped me to present my report well. I squeezed my mind, I pleased him and gave him satisfaction to protect my self over humiliation. Although my health was totally different after the incident but I was still grateful for another chance of living.
It is the God's will and the strong soul made me live today.
Namaste! I am 50% introvert and 50% extrovert, fond of reading books, watching korean, american and filipino series/movies and I am also fond of gardening. I love listening to different life stories and I am always captivated with the beauty of nature so travel is my escape when life turns into blue. But hey, how could I forget my photography hobby? It is one of the best, so follow me as I will be featuring my experiences of the stuff that I am passionate with.