Listen to your heart when it speaks the truth. Truth doesn't come from the mind. It comes from the depth of the heart, cherish the grace of the higher power that resides in your heart, share that kindness with others otherwise it will be taken away from you because there are invisible forces that sees us and hears us and they see how much a heart is pure, and how much you shared your kindness. It doesn't matter if you love life or not, they see who is upset and who is happy, they give back happiness to those who are happy and share it, and they give sadness to those who are sad and share that sadness with others. This giving based on your mode and the way you choose to be makes you see deep within you. Just listen to your heart and you will know what to do and how to act.