This is my post for #freewriters 3011 prompt suppress hosted by
Today I started working on getting the desert roses and orchids out of the shed, they have been in there for three weeks. The only water they have got was from a spray bottle, the type you would put herbicide in. I have kept a heater on in the shed at night, and grow lights on them during the daytime. They must have liked it because some have new growth and some are blooming.
I hope the cooler nights outside will not put them in shock. Last night our low was 50F and they do not like it under 55F for a prolonged time, but I think it does not stay that low long enough to cause harm to them.
For the next 2 weeks, we are to have a warming trend, they say we will get up to the eighties. "Praise the Lord". I have been more than ready for warm weather, but I don't think it will last. My husband says winter is over. We will see which is right. We made it to 74F today, I even took my sweater off.
Some people are good at hiding their feelings. I am not one of them. When I am happy, when I am sad, when I am mad, and when I am in pain, it always shows on my face.
The thing about my husband is when reading my face, he can't tell the difference between being mad and being in pain. All of the time when I am hurting, he thinks I am mad. No matter how many times I say, I hurt, he thinks I am unhappy or mad. I gave up on telling him that it is the pain. I do not know how to suppress the look on my face.
Trying to get off of the pain pills is not helping my facial expressions. My daughter is constantly asking me what is wrong. Instead of telling her, I hurt. I just say nothing is wrong. She has enough problems to worry about.
I think her MS is procressing. She has now agreed to see a neurologist. She already went to one appoinment, but now has to have new MRI-s. The doctor who diagnosed her is no longer in business and the new doctor is having a hard time getting her records so he has to start all over with the testing. I was very proud of her, she told him about her drug use. She has not used for 6 months now. I know there will be relapses, but she is doing so good, she is even gaining weight. She did not tell him about the people she talks to, they are all in her head. I will give her time and if she does not say anything to him, I will.
photos are mine