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Tomorrow will be my first Mother's Day without my Mother. I think back to all the times that I thought life was too complicated to spend time with her. I tried to spend the special days like her birthday, Mother's Day, Christmas, and Easter with her. I did visit other times but I wish I would have made more time to spend with her. Somehow I thought that she would always be here.
This is not the case and now I sit here wishing that I would have spent every day with her. I have a lot of guilt for not being there more. She was a strong woman who valued God and family, these two were the things that made her happy.
If your parents are still here, I hope that you will take the time to spend with them so you will not carry the guilt that I carry. Yes, life is complicated, you are working and raising a family but you only have 2 parents and when they are gone, they will not be coming back.
All that I can do now is write about her, I can not give her a hug, I can not call and tell her how much I love her, and I can not visit her.
Mom, I know that you are in Heaven with your 2 sons, my brothers, and your best friend of 50 years. I know that you are at peace and you have no pain, I also know that you are better off there than you were here and it would be selfish of me to want you to be here but I miss you terribly. Happy Mother's Day Mom, I love you.
photo is mine