Many times, the book is in front of me, the notebook is open, but I can't start reading. Many things are going through my head. but my mind can't settle on any line. This situation is familiar to many. There is no desire—this is not right.
There is a desire, but I don't know where to start. This is where people stop. I sit and think—So much left, So much reading, How will I finish it all? This thought slowly turns into fear. And that fear keeps me away from reading. As a result, days go by, I don't start reading again.
Many times, previous experiences are also the reason for this stopping. I have done poorly in exams before. I haven't had good results before. Since then, a fear has settled in my mind. When I open the book, I think—What if I can't do it again? What if I fail again? This fear makes studying even more difficult.
From the outside, everyone thinks—
"He's reading.
""He's a student."
But deep down I know,
I am struggling with reading.
The worst thing is when, I start to think of myself as lazy. But the truth is—It is not laziness; it is stress. To get out of this situation, It is not right to try to read everything at once. It is best to start small.
You do not have to finish the whole book today. You only have to read two pages today. It is enough to understand just a little bit today. It is not a problem if you make mistakes while reading. You have to understand everything at once—it is not right to put this pressure on yourself.
You have to gradually build a relationship with reading. The day reading becomes a habit instead of pressure, That day this fear of stopping will decrease. I am now learning to understand—Studying is not a race.It is the path of patience.
Even if I can read a little today,
I will take a step forward.
Stopping does not mean defeat.
Starting again is the real victory.
