My thoughts are muddled and my vision is hazy when I rise from bed.
With so many drinks, my voice is weak when I rise.
The sour taste of your love only keeps me awake.
The depression and ugly madness that only fills me with discontent.
What led me to fall so effortlessly in love with you?
The misery of not knowing the source of my troubles
I live the grief that grazes my thoughts like a mistery.
The worst anguish drives me just for vengeance.
However, I look up and ponder and let go of pointless vengeance.
I had forgotten to eat, to love myself, to treat myself.
I must admit I did not know what to do when times became challenging.
My mind drifted in easy times.
Suffering turns you into a walking zombie and blinds you.
Waiting for a response, I let everything meaningful fall apart.
Tired, I stopped and just wandered randomly.
As a knight-errant, I became a dash hidden as a man.
And looking for an old love, I halted searching at the several possibilities.
And the years passed and all I knew was the fury of not knowing what to do
Until one day a new love appeared and I scarcely noticed.
I didn't understand it since I had forgotten all the lovely aspects of life.
But as I started to remember, I grew to be a better person than earlier.
When I woke, I transformed into a much better version of myself.
Remembering is living, but I no longer want to look back on the past
My love is inside my heart; I will never forget it.
My instincts guided me down the road of self-redemption, and I won't turn back from it.
