Find me back in the dark
Inviting smoke into my lungs
As unexpected long nights
Lay in wait
Crazy will be running my mind
Helping the voices
Echo in the corridors of my headspace
Looking for the where
This unending emotional warfare
Began.
Was I birthed into this world
Clutching on decaying hope
While my first home
Wriggled in pain
Secretly hoping I thrive
In a place I still strive
To call home.
Shadows from a long gone past
Shroud the sun
Reminding me I belong to the dark
Familiar old monsters
Can be felt creeping back
To their thrones within my soul
Choking the little light
That might have made me its own
With a burning like grip.
In silence I fight
A bunch of inadequacies
Festering into maybes
And tonnes of what ifs
Can't help but feel
Like I am not enough
Floating on my imaginary clouds
Wondering out loud
Why these whys never ever
Seem to leave
Too.
Seems like the dark has come back for its own. I know it will stay so allow me to use this feed as my spewing space. Here is to embracing the dark and to finding the light constantly.
