Taraz is responsible for stirring up some thoughts around a few things after reading his engaging story/piece on hobbies. My hobbies are nothing we can discuss today as I myself find them odd.
...does obsession with music count as a hobby? I can't live without my headphones.
The what brought on this ongoing string of thoughts is how he, like a few other great writers I have had the pleasure of reading, summarised human beings as collectors. His words forced my eyes to leave the screen and do a quick sweep in my small bedroom and realise that everything in it is a collection of half of the just concluded decade. That, minus the whatever a fire in June 2018 took from me.
I don't have much but it is enough considering. When I say considering, I mean because I am doing way much better than many souls out there. I am grateful I have what I have.
The what his read dug up was the need to really narrow down on my weird hobbies. Having a hobby is fun but how about having a productive one? His is and because mine is very much familiar with it but probably of lower quality, I can try to tap into it.
I can polish whatever skills I have on this one and see if I can actually make something out of it.
I am talking about writing. I like writing.
And I say like as I feel like I haven't earned saying that I love it yet. This maybe because I am still struggling with sharing some of my own creations. Or probably it's because as I keep saying, I write for very selfish reasons.
I hide my work for the obvious reasons of feeling inadequate as a scribe. The belief that people will find time to read some badly constructed reflections with bearable grammar and a pinch of half baked poetry here and there is yet to move in with my doubtful soul.
And I term my reasons for writing as selfish as I do it with the sole intention to heal. Emotional PTSD has my tongue on watch so verbally sharing pain is a no go zone for me. I prefer fictionalising my own life with the hopes of healing my moon child and her traumatic experiences while trekking through this journey called life.
If I could free my minimal writing prowess and the courage to air my ink's vulnerability then I may be able to forge a routine of investing in this multifaceted hobby. The possibility of it becoming something to talk about from an encouragement perspective like Taraz is there if I put in what everyone else reaping from writing is.
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What are your hobbies? What do you intend on doing with them if you are not already? Can they be a way of earning something or learning?
