This is a random stream of thoughts from a soul trying to stay as accountable as possible. Presence on the chain usually translates to spreading out in the community and learning a thing or two. This freewrite comes before the spreading out though...
I have just read 
So, how do I relate to her inability to trust herself, you ask?
Since I was growing up, self sabotaging tendencies and low self esteem issues were a huge part of me. The zero social support especially from the family members themselves after my mum's death followed by their emotional abuse contributed largely to shying away from the boldness I normally would exude.
Broken, I dragged trust issues everywhere and into every situation I found myself in. After a toxic stay, they ate away my capability to trust others or myself.
Even though I can proudly say that I have worked through a lot of the trust issues, to this day, I still struggle with trusting myself. When that small voice that guides my soul whispers something, I being this person who won't trust it decides to defy it's logical call. I then find myself later regretting the decision to ignore the internalized warning signs.
The fact that I believe that our instincts foresee shit and try to scream from deep within but since majority of us rarely explore listening to ourselves, we end up fighting what we know is good for us knowingly somehow and still won't trust mine is what I find very ridiculous to me.
Who has the keys to self trust and how does one go about it.
