I took a look at the past
I turned back and felt uncomfortable
I relived the pains that stunned me for so long
I felt the pains that caused me so much sleeplessness
In my imagination I didn't think I could feel them again
But despite so many years they don't seem to want to go away.
My heart is lost in the sadness of knowing that I am the same as before
So tired, so nonconformist, so hurt, and that now I have less energy to bear it
I don't know if it will change what I do, I know nothing, and stay in the same place
When rages and annoyances come to me, they make their nest in my mind
My goal is not to run away from what causes me pain, it is to overcome everything that bothers me with honor
But as the years go by, it seems an impossible mission.
I try to mutilate my feelings into unfathomable sobs that can't be heard
I camouflage them in the wind and my tears I only let them out when it rains
So that my pain and tears are confused with the rain when it falls
I never learned what happens when you truly overcome pain
As much as I think about it I've never been able to truly live
I hide my instinct to overcome so that no one can sabotage it.
The noises of now mix with my old thoughts
The pain of the past joins the pain of the present and makes me tense
Madness that invades me and never seems to want to leave
I know that someday I will overcome all the pain, anger and suffering
But I wonder when it will happen to prepare my jubilation
Because between each sorrow that appears, the time seems farther away.
