Does it matter what I say?
You want me to speak out
Say what's on my mind
Pronounce each word clearly and loud
Because you can't stand my mumbling.
Guess what I figured out
Indeed
It's hard for me
I don't know how to express myself
Properly
How to fit in and please.
I struggle and fight to survive
It's not because I'm getting older
Or I'm chained to my house
Neither I am dominated by a bad spouse.
Although, my parents are great
Their embrace warms my heart
I struggle with words
Since the day I did start
My life
It's hard to understand
Why I can't
Why am I not able to say anything right?
I always let out the opposite
Of what I have in mind.
Can you imagine how tough it is
Spitting out the wrong wording
Because my brain is always ahead
Instead of cooperating
with my tongue, my voice
Perhaps it is the neverending noise
That always surrounds me
You believe I show no interest
But the truth is I am different from the rest
My lack of phraseology
It's not caused by consuming meat
The concussion or because I was involved
In an accident
Vocabulary is more like a crossword puzzle to me
One that can't be solved.
22-12-2023
The photo was taken by me.