the principal wrote in my yearbook i was much to the credit of my christening much like a hurricane, and should go onward as such.

Sounds like a cool principal. Most hurricane kids today, they're prescribed Ritalin and dosed up until they die down. I think we should do more to encourage our hurricane children. (Maybe I'd feel differently if I actually had children...)

it takes time and energy, which then surfaces frustration that feels like why am i not doing more of myself in other ways, in other places.

It sucks that we only get one lifetime to do all the stuff we want to do, doesn't it? And we have to use up a bunch of that lifetime figuring out what the hell we actually want to do. But I think your category-5 winds will make a mark wherever you go; so don't worry too much about it, just blow.