I've been writing lots of poems of late I can sense I am getting better at it I think and have come up with some new ways to express things more eloquently. I feel there is more to learn and improve on and also know the process is a long way to go for me to confidently say I am getting good.
I think my next step is to read some of the classic poems written by some masters before me to get a better grasp of how to be more fluent with writing poetry.
I have my doubts. I am also scared that the act of me studying the writings of others will shape the way I write into a structure that will lose my raw and unfiltered or at the very least jagged style of poetry.
I am my biggest critic. I don't read my poems after I write them unless of course they feel like I really like the flow of them. I am also curious of others reading them and having feedback because sometimes they come away with something I did not totally think I had expressed in such a way where it is interpreted differently.
My writing for a blog has diminished and the long format writing I once enjoyed has been superseded with a shortened format that I have grown accustomed to. I somehow find myself in a mental cross road with my life also since I have now started to drop my melancholic style of poetry into a more hopeful and loving/romantic kind of poetry.
Almost like a love letter. A letter to my new other half.
I am hopeful of my future, which scares the bejesus out of me. I feel that commitment bug has taken a grip on me hard. Like a nail being driven into an already boarded up window or the boards are being ripped away and has let some light back into the darkened room I had been digging into an abyss.
I guess time heals and the future holds something I was never thought would happen. Along the way I have also hurt some people. I am not perfect.
I digress.
Well now that I have started to write something that I feel is a thought letter to myself and whoever finds this as a read I hope you are enjoying looking into and inside of my conscious mind.
Where do I go from here? The poetry has changed in colour and the style has evolved into what I am posting to the community. I am however noting the community is such a niche that the audience is not as vast as some of the other communities on hive. But I am also hopeful that it will grow into something that can be accessed by those that seek poetry or a good read that has a future use for someone out there.
If you build it, they will come.
Now for the kicker where do I post this? On the #blockchainpoets channel or on blog page. I want an audience. I think that is fair to state and am more than entitled to ask for it. Especially with the amount of posts I have done in the last few years that I have focused on poetry. Then again since I am not getting any followers there is a sense of realization I am just not that good with my writing ? Or worst case scenario the blockchain/hive has not got a mature enough audience/exposure for it to be a viable form of publishing anything I compose.
I do know one thing the skill is improving, even at a snails pace I am getting there I know it. It's a skill and I am sure skills improve the more you use it. Like a real life RPG where the real currency is time spent that cannot be every gained back.
*The real commodity.
Father time.
Don't roll it on a dime.
Even if you think it's fine.*
Well I'll leave it here for now.
