Change.

We say we wanna change

change our life
change our health
change our finances

We say we wanna change
everything from our relationship
with our parents
our children
our spouse, or siblings, or those we socialise with

We say we want to change
but do we really?

Do we really want
to go through the heartache
of the goodbyes
that have to proceed new
hellos?

Do we really want to discover
that we are even more different
from our family of origin
than even we realised?

Do we really want
to rearrange,
reorganise
and redistribute
what's truly important to us?

We say we wanna change

we wanna grow
we wanna improve
we wanna fix the things
that have felt broken forever

But maybe we forgot
or maybe
no one warned us in the first place

That the reason change is hard
is because we don't

magically get the result
without going through the
actual transition

Change is what we say we want

But even when
we're in control of the change
and the overall outcome
is one that feels positive

it's still way fucking harder
than most of us imagine.